Love at First Fight

Chapter 34

"You didn't answer my question" I heard manik making me look up

"What question" I asked

"Did you eat" he asked again siting on the bed beside me

"No I didn't" I said

"Why" he asked

"Why are you so upset with me? I didn't even do anything" I said sitting up

"Im not upset nandini, im just hurt." he said and I was confused

"Why? What did I do" I asked

"Forget it, I just didn't wanna get angry at you so I was with cabir trying to distract myself from everything" he said

"I get that, but why were you hurt, tell me what I did" I asked moving closer to him putting my hand out to touch his

"It's nothing, it's over im over it I guess so im sorry that I ignored you ands rude"

"Manik if you don't tell me then how will I fix it" I asked

"There is nothing to fix" he said

"I am a human manik, and clearly I made a mistake causing you to get hurt, but it was never my intention. I would never purposely hurt you. I care a lot about you and I can see you are still not over it so please tell me so I never repeat it" I said

"Do you not trust me Nandini" he asked and I was confused

"Of course I do manik, why this question?" I asked

"Then what made you think that if you kiss me id take it or perceive it as you wanting to have sex" he asked

Everything was starting to make sense now, he thought that I didn't trust him, I mean he is right to think that because of how I worded my sentence.

I got up and sat on his lap with my legs on either side of him, but he didn't put his hands around me making me shake my head

I moved his arms behind my back and he tightened his hold around my waist. I hooked my arms around his biceps and looked in his eyes

"Im sorry that I made you feel like I don't trust you. I do trust you manik, but I didin't mean that when I said what I said. it is hard for me to not randomly say things that made me or makes me insecure I guess. I never doubted your intentions or your care for me, it was me expressing how I felt in my last relationship. For the longest time I felt like if I even touched a guy by mistake he would perceive me wanting it and im not using that as an excuse because it is not. Just give me some time to get used to being okay with doing what I want to. I want to kiss you and hold your hand without you initiating it and even though I know you would never do anything to hurt me, it's that defense mechanism that acts up. I am truly sorry that I made you feel like that and I promise I will be more cautious of my words from now on" I said

"I know, I understand. It just took me a while to figure it out" he whispered

"Next time yell at me but don't walk away like this. I am used to waking up by you and not seeing you around freaks me out a lot" I said and his face softened

"Im sorry, I just didin't know how to control my thoughts"

"Its okay, I guess this is how it works right. We mess up and then we learn" he nodded

"And fun fact, I do wanna kiss you mr Malhotra" I whispered

Before he could answer I leaned forward placing my lips on his, he smiled against my lips. I pulled back pecking his lips again and he had this beautiful smile on his face, the kind that takes my heart away, the kind that can wake up corpse, the kind that I can watch for the rest of my life