My Brother's Best Friend ( A Luke Hemmings Fanfic )

Chapter 12

Warning: Story May Include Self-Harm Triggers

Soon it's once again meal time, this specific meal being lunch. I try to get out of it, but I can tell Ash is starting to get suspicious so I eat with them. They're having dinosaur chicken nuggets. Sometimes those boys are such little kids.

I eat a few with ketchup just to make Ashton happy. On the inside I'm telling myself that I don't need the calories and that Luke probably thinks the same as I do. After a couple minutes of thinking about this I feel a tear I didn't know was there slip down my cheek. I quickly excuse myself from the table, hoping nobody saw.

I run to the bathroom, and like I have done so many times before, I make myself throw up the contents of my stomach. After I finish I flush the toilet and sit there crying. I feel like I never stop crying, and I'm a weakling. That just adds to the list of reasons no boy will ever like me.

I sneak off to the music room and play the track for 'Fix You' by Coldplay. I sing along into the mic, recording myself in the makeshift studio. As I finish the song, I hear clapping. I quickly turn around, falling off my stool in the process. Luke helps me up and I silently pray he won't see my tear-stained cheeks.

"What's wrong Syd?" He asks with a worried look. "Wh-What do you mean?" He glances at me with a 'Really?' look on his face, "Don't play dumb, I saw you crying at the table."

I stare hard at the ground hoping that maybe it will just swallow me up. He takes this silence as an opportunity to comfort me for whatever I'm going through. He put his arms around me, and hugs me tight.

"I'm not sure what you're going through, but whatever it is I'm here for you. I'll be your friend forever and help you however I can." His words meant to comfort me just put a deeper hole in my heart. I've been put in the friend zone yet again.

Even though I just want to break down crying again, I decide to be strong for once. For him. I know I'll have to get over him, but I just can't let him go. I love him too much. Somehow I will have to get want I want. I will have to forget about him.

A.N. - I'm sorry I haven't updated. I'm planning on updating a lot more during the summer when I don't have school to worry about. I only have until the 15th, then I'm out of school until September.

I hope you liked the chapter! If you have any suggestions or anything, just comment below.

I used a Coldplay song partly bc it's Ash's favorite band, and partly just bc it's what I felt like. XD

Goodbye my beautiful penguins! Enjoy!!