My Brother's Best Friend ( A Luke Hemmings Fanfic )

Chapter 19

A.N. Play song when I give the ** sign

My eyes open to the sterile white room I've been in for almost a week. It's been two days since I woke up, and Luke still hasn't left my side. Ashton isn't too worried because he doesn't know the real reason why I passed out. Our mum told him I got dehydrated, so he's been making sure I drink plenty of water. I had a talk with my Mum, and we both cried. I told her about some of the bullying. She really is the best. She's worked so hard to raise us, and since I've woken up, I've begun realizing what I put her through.  

We agreed Ashton shouldn't know just yet, if only because he needs no more stress. He's leaving for tour in three days, and I don't want him to have an extra burdon. Especially since he's part of the reason I cut. Not him as a person, but the fact that he left me. I always felt that I deserved to be left behind. I always felt that it was personal. 

I want to get over this, but it will be made harder since he's leaving me again. He'll be in America for a majority of the time. He may even go to Europe based on the succes of the American leg. To make it worse, Luke will be with him. I'm losing all four of my boys in one trip. Usually it would be fine for the bys to go. Sure, they're usually at my house when they're here, but they have their own lives. A lot of the time, I hide away in my room so I don't feel like a bother. But now it's different.

I've spent the last few days with Luke constantly by my side. He sneaks me outside food, makes sure I'm comfortable at least five times a day, and sings to the music of his guitar when he thinks I'm asleep. When my insomnia kicks in, it's as if he can sense it. He wakes up without a yawn or complaint, running his hands through my hair to calm me when my anxiety kicks in. 

I'm trying to slowly let him go, but he isn't making it any easier. It's as if he wants me to love him. Here we are during one of my night-time panic attacks, his eyes opening as my breath rapidifies. He gets up and moves to the edge of my hospital bed. 

"It's okay, Syd. You're okay. I'm right here." His hand moves to my hair. I sit up, pulling my legs to my chest and leaning on him. In response, he wraps his arm around me and pulls me close. It feels nice to be here next to him, but I can't seem to calm down. Suddenly he starts singing.** It's their song "I've Got This Friend," which I haven't heard in forever. He does make the difference where he sings "lead vocals" when Cal usually sings "bass guitar." 

I only wish it was true. Finally, my breath slows down. It's gotten to the point where I need him to breathe. What am I gonna do when he's halfway across the planet? I think I really, truly, love him. And I don't ever want to let him go.

A.N. Hey guys!! I told you I'd post another chapter soon. I thought this would be cute, and I can relate because I get panic attacks too. Luke and Syd are finally getting close, but he's leaving in two days. What do you think is gonna happen? 

Thanks for reading, Penguins!! <3