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34.

~GRACE~

"I don't want space, I don't want you to step back, I don't want to argue, I don't want to be away from you, I don't want to not see you this long in situation like this" I said putting my hands on his cheeks

"I need you Leo, I can't live without you, I hate myself for what I did to you last week and that you got injuried because of me, that it's hurting you because of me" I said looking at his ankle that was still big and blue as tears was falling down my cheeks

"look at me" he said putting his hands on my cheeks and pulling me closer to himself

"don't you ever dare to say that again, you can not hate yourself for something you didn't do, you didn't foul me, I didn't fell and twisted my ligaments because of you, I didn't even because of that guy, it was my bad luck because we argue the day before and I couldn't stop thinking about that, I couldn't concentrate on match" he said leaning his forehead against mine

"that day when you showed me that you're insecure because of your stretch marks I couldn't believe what was happening and I hate myself for making you love me before you love yourself. I need and want you to change that, if you want to love me you have to love yourself before and I would do anything to help you with that, you helped me and I have to give it back to you and help you with your problem" he said and I couldn't help the closeness

I put my hand on his cheek pulling him closer until our lips met.

I didn't know you can miss someone, someone's touch this much until this moment.

This was the moment I lost my own control and I throw us on the couch, him laying on the couch and me on the top of him kissing him like this is the last I'm gonna do in my life.

It didn't last, he pulled away, pushing me away from him, not aggressively what confused me.

"I'm sorry" he said looking away from me and when my eyes fell on his shaking hands I got worried

"Leo? What's happening?" I asked putting my hand on his cheek getting him to look at me

"I didn't tell you everything that night" he said and I froze not believing that he hide something more

"w-what?" I asked totally confused

"you know how all the time when we were kissing I was the one on the top never letting you to take my place" he said and I nodded

"that's why I pushed you away now, I can't let you on the top, even I will probably want one day but at the moment I can't imagine it, it will break me even more, I know you're not her but I'm still reminded of that even I so damn hate it" he said and then I realised

She was on the top when she did that to him, that's why he don't let me to be on the top and I have to change it.

I have to make him forget everything about that nights, about her.

I put a hand over my face trying to hide my tears but there was no need for it he wrapped his arms around me pulling me closer to himself and kissing the top of my hand.

"I think that's all, you now know everything" he said and I cried even more

He trust me this much and I played it out last week.

•••••

I heard front doors opening and even I wanted to move I couldn't. He fell asleep on my chest.

"thank god" James mumbled quietly as he saw us on the couch and Millie just happily jumped on the placed while Kennedy just smiled

Millie went upstairs and James and Kennedy went to the kitchen.

I lightly moved to get more comfortable since it was almost half an hour of me in the same position.

He wrapped his arms tighter around my body not letting me leave, even I wanted I couldn't move because he was heavier than me and his body on mine didn't let me move.

"don't leave" he mumbled and I just pulled him closer leaving kisses on the top of his head

"I won't leave" I whispered

"can we go to my room?" he asked and I smiled to myself

I looked towards Kennedy in the kitchen who was letting me know that he need to eat.

"you have to eat something" I said rubbing my thumb over his cheek

"I'm not hungry" he mumbled

"but you didn't eat" I said

"come on" I said trying to sit up but he didn't let me

"I don't want to eat" he said

"Leo, you have to eat" I said and he finally gave up letting go of me and standing up

I walked beside him towards kitchen sitting on chairs around the kitchen island.

"did you eat?" Kennedy asked and I shook my head starting to feel hungry now

Soon enough Millie and James joined us so we all eat together.

•••••

"I heard you started getting bad grades, that you're not hanging out with Phoebe and that you paused your Spanish lessons" Leo said as we laid on his bed after the whole evening spend in the living room with his parents and sister.

"who told you that?" I asked looking at him frowning

"I overheard our dads' conversation the other day" he said and I nodded lightly

"yeah, that's right" I said and he cup my face

"don't do that because of me, please Grace" he said and I just hugged him breathing in his scent that was relaxing me

"I just needed time alone to think about everything, to process everything that happened between us" I said