i thought it would never end
thought that those feelings were infinite, black holes in my heart absorbing my light and pulling me down into the void
i thought it would never end
and in some ways it has been ending for years, and in some ways it never felt over until now
until i said goodbye first.
and for the first time, i got past the denial, the bargaining. i made it to anger, depression just another day in the life, and here we are.
and it's all over now,
the campfire ash from the woods i left burning, finally gone from soot to soil.
my light will no longer be a heart ablaze.
there are sunrises. they warm without scarring.
i thought it would never go away.
now i wonder, how did i ever think it could stay?
it's over. my ghosts are merely ghosts. haunt me, smoke and sugar. watch me, for we both know you can't touch. the end has come and i have gone.
