A Thousand steps in front

Chapter 3

beep.................beep.....................beep..........................beep

I can hear distance humming and i'm lying down. how did i get here?

I try to Open my eyes but I can't. I'ts like heavy weights are on my eyelids holding hem down.

I then realized something is tapped to my face, so I reached up to rip it off when a warm hand grabs hold of mine..

"No you don't" said a soft voice.

their is only one person I know who that voice belongs to, Leon.

"Why are you here?" I ask out of curiosity

"Amy I'm not doing this now" Leon said sternly looking into my eyes, looking into my soul. My heart. Which was now broken because of him. "Amy we need to talk."

I looked at his face that held a blank expression-hard to read

"I-...I Already knew about the arranged Marriage. Your mother told mine and...basically I've known since we were fifteen."

I didn't know what to say.

"But that's not all....I have been unfaithful to you. it was one time. I was drunk and it was a stupid, stupid mistake. Fuck-baby, please don't cry!"

Tears were pouring down my face.

I could only choke out one word.

I closed my eyes, I don't want to look at him

"Leave. Now."

I didn't open my eyes until i heard him rise from the chair and footstep's leading out of the room and the door closing.

I can;t believe it, why? Why me? I had loved him for many years, maybe i was just not enough? In that moment i needed someone who was always there for me.

My sister.

As I reach over for my phone something catches my eye

it's a letter from Leon with my name on the envelope in his beautiful neat yet messy handwriting. Amy

I rip open the envelope with my teeth, curious to find what's in this letter.

Amy

There's always that one girl that you will never forget. The one girl that will have your heart forever. That one girl that could make you smile on the worst of days and make you fall in love with her all over again.

The hardest part of remembering her is knowing she isn't there anymore. That she is gone. And that it was your own fault..

She's everything you could dream of and more. She's the definition of perfect in your eyes. Nobody sees her like you do. Nobody knows her like you do.

She's the prize possession that you couldn't even imagine how lucky you are to be with. To call her your girl. The girl you are going to miss every day for the rest of your life. The one that is worth every tear you cry and every hard time you go through.

Never let that girl slip away no matter what the circumstances. It's not worth the pain and emptiness you will feel after.

Love her every day and cherish every moment you spend with her. If she is the girl you can't imagine being without then don't mess that up. Because no other girl will ever make you feel that way she does.

I'm so sorry that I never showed you how much I did love you ,

I wish we could start over

have a thousand steps in front of a head start,

Leon.

I cried and cried and cried until I was begging go the pain to go away.

~Goosie~