Too lazy to get a girlfriend ENG

2. At home

I could have thought that it would be one big uproar at home. Everyone greeted me and hugged me as if we hadn't seen each other in a thousand years instead of a week, and the tables sagged under the weight of plates covered with all kinds of food. No one dared to criticize me, everyone was suddenly changed, so I joined in playing the perfect family and did not want to spoil their joy with sad grimaces.When everything was eaten, drunk and celebrated as it should be, I could finally go to my room, from which I closed the door with great joy and left the commotion from the living room behind. I fell exhausted on the bed, into my favorite duvets, which smelled of detergent and the summer breeze, on which they had probably dried before my arrival, and I closed my eyes contentedly. I felt my Airpods in my pocket, and to the sound of my current favorite band, I fell into an inner fantasy world where it was just me and their voices screaming for justice.When I woke up, I found out that it was already morning and that the playback fortunately stopped itself at about three in the morning due to a low battery. So I put my phone on charge and decided to go get breakfast in the meantime and then also look at the school, which I had successfully avoided until now.------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------It was another busy school day and I just got home. School duties fell on me like a bunch of unpleasant garbage that needs to be quickly disposed of in order to live a normal life again. I was stressed out that I couldn't keep up and I was in a slump, that my head hurt so much that I got a migraine again. I suffered from these conditions quite often, the only things that helped me a little were computer games and songs, which I turned off. Unfortunately, I had already listened to my favorite Blind Channel song on the way home and didn't need to hear the same tone over and over again. I wanted something more. They must have many other songs that are worth it, I'm sure I can find a lot of them on Youtube.I opened my laptop and with headphones in my ears I started searching for what I should have been looking for a long time ago. Because I discovered countless beautiful songs, emotional tones and enough good music videos and covers that this Finnish group made that I really regretted my comfortable nature of listening to the same song over and over when I could have a whole regiment of hits. I got through everything in a few hours and couldn't stop until my mom called me over for dinner and I realized I'd spent the entire afternoon on my laptop. But that doesn't matter, I've downloaded their playlist to my phone and as soon as dinner is over, I'll go out and play these unique songs over and over until they're stuck in my head.------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------About a month passed since I returned home from the hospital and I had the zest for life again after a long time. It was unbelievable how much ordinary songs can do that are not played and you have the need to sing them absolutely everywhere, even in the school desk. As I listened to my favorite playlist every day, I began to wonder what the songs were really about. I often caught a few words, but I wanted to know the exact text and every word, as if my existence depended on it. Some of them I could totally see myself in, some gave me an insight into the lives of the performers and others made me even more curious and eager for information about the band members. My favorite thing was to watch music videos where the singers appeared live and where I could follow their every move until I eventually knew the videos by heart. I especially liked watching one of the singers of Blind Channel - a tall blond guy whose ice blue eyes had something in them that I couldn't quite put into words. Rather, he acted on me like a magnet, like a well that hides something beneath the surface... and I wished to see the mysterious young man with the pale skin in person. I really wanted to meet him personally, to talk about where he got the inspiration for such deep and true lyrics, whether he or someone else from the group experienced all this. And so I always ended up in front of the monitor after school and surfed the net with a hungry curiosity to find out what new about him today. Often the articles were in Finnish, but even that didn't deter me and the translator explained the content of the interview in a concise manner. I quickly read everything, because there wasn't that much, the band didn't belong to the too-well-known ones until they performed in Eurovision, and so the wave of attention swept after them.My Pinterest was populated by a new board called Joel Hokka - where I stored all of his photos, gifs, and content related to him until I became literally addicted to it. I knew that what I was doing was the exact opposite of how I promised to behave. But I couldn't help myself again, it was like a drug! With the larger quantity, my taste grew and then I literally thought of nothing else but the singer, who was not only not from the Czech Republic, but also not well-known enough to have a chance to see him in person. I was in love, crazy, crushed ... as for the many time before. Damn me!