IMAGINE a world like that...

•long distance•

~in wich~
This is a sad imagine...simple as that
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Ariana pov

I was sitting at my desk, paying attention to the lesson, despite the teachers aggravating rambling. Writing down what he told us to, the only true thought on my mind was how badly I wanted to get out of here and spend some time with my girlfriend. I don't want anything more then to talk to her, because I know she'll listen...

Then again, that's all she can do

Being broken put of my sulking run, my attention shifted to my desktop, as I feel something land on it. Looking at what it was, I frown at the neatly folded in half slip of paper. Picking it up, I look around the class, trying to possibly figure out where the paper could have came from, but no one looks suspicious.

Turning back to the paper, I unfold it, curious as to what's on the inside. I re-read the note over a couple times, just to make sure I'm reading it right.

I think you're really pretty

Can I take you on a date?

□ yes or □ no

- Mariana

Gulping, my stomach turns at the note...because this is exactly how me and y/n started dating. And I know it's been a year, and I should be used to life without her here everyday, but I'm not, I can't bring myself to adjust. It just dosent feel the same, and I know y/n tole be before she left, that if someone asks me out, or if I ever develop feelings for someone else, that I should go for it, and not wear myself out with staying attached to her, but I would never, and could never do that to her. I refuse.

Closing the paper back up, I put it in my notebook, and look back, a few desks behind me at Mariana, a girl I've known for a while, we talk a little bit more, ever since y/n left. I know she has a slight crush on me, and don't get me wrong, she's attractive, and she's nice, and cute, and funny, and amazing....but she is not my y/n.

As the bell rings, signaling that this period is over, I sigh in happiness, realizing that I can now go spend some time with the girl I love.

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As the hallways crowd with students, I stand at my locker, making sure I grab everything I need to get before I leave, I had just talked to my friend vic not that long ago, she invited me to go hang out with her and my other friends at her place, because according to her I need to "put myself out there again, and have some fun"...I declined her offer. I'll get back to my normal self eventually, and I will start having fun again, hell I already have been having fun again...it's just that things would be 100 times more fun if Y/n was still here.

Not paying attention to my surroundings, I don't notice Mariana approaching me

"So..." She trails on as I slip on my jacket, Correction y/ns jacket

"Is it a yes or a no?" She asks, and for a second I don't know what she's talking about

"My note, about taking you on a date...yes or no" she asks lightly and I look away for a second, contemplating

A part of me wants to say yes, and listen to what y/n said about keeping myself locked down and explore a little bit, but the other part of me, that love sick part of me, the little girl that fell in love woth y/n from just one day, the part of me that wanted to marry y/n, the part of me that was crushed when she left, the part of me who didn't eat or sleep for weeks when she left....that part of me wants to say no.

And I do just that....well not exactly that, but still

"I have a girlfriend Mariana" I say softly, adjusting my backpack

"You do?" She asks making me nod my head

"O-oh, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to be disrespectful to her or you, it's just that i-ive never see you with anyone so I thought-" she starts to ramble and I smiled at her softly

"No, it's ok. I get it" i paused "we're in a long distance relationship, that's why you've never seen her" I add making her go silent

"That's cool, it's so nice that yall are still with eachother, no matter how far apart yall are" she said, and that struck a nerve, tears Instantly prick my eyes as I remember what y/n said to me the day she left

"I'm still gonna be with you, I'll still love you just as much, no matter where I am, and I mean that"

Clearing the thought from my mind, I clear my throat next and look at Mariana who is looking at me

"I-i gotta go...you know homework and shit" I mumbled

"Uh yea...s-see ya around ari" she says, and then we go our separate ways.

God, whyd you have to leave me y/n.

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I shivered from the cold air, as I held a bouquet of daisies in one hand, and my phone in the other.

Y/n loved daisies

Feeling myself start to break, I don't even think straight as I walk to see my girlfriend, walking mindlessly through a place that I've been so many times, my feet know the trail naturally, and I could seriously no joke navigate through here with my eyes closed.

Upon seeing my girlfriend, I wipe away the single tear that slides down my cheek. My nose burning, and I let out a small sob Upon getting up to her.

I do this every time.

Sitting down In front of her, I place the flowers next to her, shaking my head and wiping my tears, because y/n hates when I cry.

"H-hello my love" I Whispered out, not being able to keep my composure

"Its been a year, a whole year, and im- I'm trying so hard to be strong for you" I paused, letting out another soft cry

"You know, a girl asked me out today, her name was Mariana..." I paused, wiping my face again, "i remembered what you said about getting myself out there, and to go for anyone that I liked...I tried, I really tried to consider what you said, b-but I couldn't" I spoke, trying to calm myself down

"Fuck I just-" I couldn't even continue what I was gonna say, so I decided to tell her the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth

As I looked at my girlfriends head Stone, I placed my hand over her handprint that was carved into the concrete block

Letting out one last sob, I speak

"I miss you baby...so fucking much" I say

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A/n: this made me sad, and I didn't get to update WOLW, plus I am in a SHIT mood, so yea. This was real short but oh well.

Word count: 1210