first loser ; s. kunikuzushi √

001

second place .. again ? i worked hard this time , i even stayed up all night just to do exercises for the tests . why am i still failing !? who the fuck is getting first place !

class placing
first place : scaramouche
second place : l/n
third place : albedo

scaramouche ..

"huh , first place again . can't the school come up with something more... challenging ?" he said , crossing his arms while looking at the class placing .

"how.. how do you always get first place ?" i said , awfully scared about how my father would react to me getting second place again .

he didn't answer my question. he glared at me and rolled his eyes then walked away . geez , rude much ?

"congratulations on getting second place again , l/n ." albedo said .

"uh thanks .." you shrugged .

"hey , second place isn't that bad you know ? i would kill to be second rather than third ."

"albedo , you don't get it . being second sucks ." you said , you were still devastated and worried about how your father will react .

"well , i have no rights to judge your opinion but once again , congratulations." he said and walked away .

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" 𝗦𝗘𝗖𝗢𝗡𝗗 𝗣𝗟𝗔𝗖𝗘 ? 𝗧𝗛𝗔𝗧'𝗦 𝗪𝗛𝗔𝗧 𝗬𝗢𝗨 𝗖𝗔𝗟𝗟 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗙𝗜𝗥𝗦𝗧 𝗟𝗢𝗦𝗘𝗥 ." my father said as he slapped me across the face.

"first loser..?" i raised an eyebrow while rubbing my cheek where it hurt .

"yeah dumbass . second is basically the loser since they didn't get first . ever thought of that you idiot? " he rolled his eyes at me .

sometimes i wonder why i haven't been sent for adoption . i feel like killing myself .

"ok" i said and stormed off to my room .

i need to try harder . i need to do better . do it for my father . i want him to be proud of me . i need him to love me as a daughter . work harder , work harder .

your dad slapped you really hard in the face , causing you to bleed .

"annoying blood.. i guess i have to bandage it up ." you said and you take a bandage and stick it on your face .

you sighed .

when's the next test coming up .. 2 months..? i have not enough time . okay let me check my schedule. study 2 hours for maths , 4 hours for history , 1 hour for English , 2 hours for science ..

maybe i should add 2 hours for geography too .
alright . 11 hours of studies starts tomorrow after school .

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everyone was whispering and looking at me weirdly . was it because of my cheek ? i hope it doesn't concern anyone .

"looks like someone wasn't good enough for their parents . wait , what did you get again ? second place ? what a loser ." scaramouche laughed .

loser..

loser ?

loser ??

'second place ? that's what you call the first loser .'

I'm not a loser .. i did my best father .

"I'M NOT A LOSER , FATHER ." you said as you run away in tears .

scaramouche watched as you ran .

"tsk . it's not my problem she didn't study hard for the test . all she does is chat with her friends a-anyways ." he stuttered .

"not cool , man ." albedo said as he ran to check on you .

"not.. my problem !" he laughed silently . was he regretting his words ?

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okay l/n , wipe your tears and continue your day . your emotions can't get ahead of you , crying is for weakling , right? crying is only for people who seek attention right ?

im not like that . im calm and composed . and my feelings are irrelevant. right now , i need to buck up on my studies .

"l/n? l/n ! are you here ? i came to check up on you ." a familiar voice could be heard .

"albedo ..? "

"oh, l/n . are you okay ? he was pretty harsh . I'm sure he'd regret what he said ." albedo said as he sat next to you on the bench .

"i don't want anything to do with this guy . he's a mood killer ." i sighed and placed my hand on my chin .

"so your father did this to you ? um, im guessing since you shouted father before running away ."
albedo pointed at my cheek .

i nodded .

"but it's fine , I'm going to study harder so I can be a good daughter for him ! i can do it ." I said confidently .

albedo smiled . "okay then , but remember to take care of your health . if you face any problems you can meet me and sucrose in the counseling room , we do counseling sessions every Monday to Friday after school ."

"alright , I'll keep that in mind . anyways.. im going to head to my math class . see ya ."you said ,waving goodbye to him and walked away .

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"who can tell me the answer to question 21 ? "

i can't think straight right now .. is the answer 459 or 449.. gh..

"449." you raised your hand and answered .

the teacher started counting and your answer was indeed correct .

you let out a relieved sigh , scaramouche noticed .

"aren't you like ... smart or something ? why are you so relieved on getting an answer right ?"

i was still mad at him for being a bitch so i just glared at him and rolled my eyes , ignoring his question .

i thought he was going to get furious but I guess i thought wrong . instead he sighed .

"ugh , if this is about today morning , im sorry I guess . i didn't acknowledge your stupid feelings about getting second place ." he said , not wanting to make eye contact with me .

"it's okay i guess ." you accepted his apology without looking him at the face . it was like you were just answering him so he would shut up .

"whatever ."

"whatever ." you mocked him .

"how dare you mock me , u fuckass ." he shouted .

"SCARAMOUCHE, DETENTION AFTER SCHOOL ." the teacher screamed at scaramouche for swearing .

"THE HELL? I DID NOTHING WRONG ." he shouted back .

"can you both just shut the fuck up ?" you rolled your eyes while covering your ears .

"DETENTION FOR YOU TOO , L/N . honestly , i expected better from you two ."

great . now i have to spend my supposedly study time with this bastard . can't believe there's actually girls who like him . gross . his stupid haircut , stupid personality , stupid face , stupid apologies , stupid empathy . wait what ?