13: Fights and Makeups

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I woke up and slid out of my bunk, I walked to the end of the bus to the back room and sat down. Just thinking about all the hate and everyone that's in my life, and last night.

(A/N This flashback is NOT in the previous chapter, It is something that she 'thinks' happened. Set up for later in the story)

~Flashback~

' I saw the picture I know you cheated ' Liam yelled

' Why don't you believe me when I say I did not cheat on you '

' Cause your a whore, a worthless nobody '

' Why would you say that, I'm not a whore or worthless Li '

' Don't call me Li only my friends get to call me Li. '

~Flashback over~

I took out my journal/diary and wrote.

' It hurts to know that he would say " your cheating on me, " yet he dose not know half of it. The hate on twitter is getting harder to deal with, I have not eaten a real meal in 17 days. There back and by there I mean the voices. Telling me to kill me self and your worthless even worse my dream last night Liam did not know existed, he said you nothing to me, I HATE YOU!! The worse part of me dream is that he told me he had s*x with Sophia, when we were dating. That's the worse thing. I don't now if he would do that, my trust with Liam is slowly getting weak. I do love him its just dose he love me? I know we are dating but, he could have anyone in the world. Why me. Out of everyone he chose me. I want to tell him how I truly feel but, I'm scared, of him breaking up with me why I would have those dreams. I don't know. But I know my love for Liam has grown 1000x stronger, all I need now is his trust.

Talk to you next time,
Ashlynn Irwin

Liam's POV

I woke up like 15 minutes ago, I was looking for my hat that Niall missed placed. I walked to the back room and saw something on the couch, as I walked closer I saw I said
' Ashlynn's Journal' I know something is wrong with Ashlynn she's talking to her self and not acting the same. I opened it to the last page written in it said,

' It hurts to know that he would say " your cheating on me, " yet he dose not know half of it. The hate on twitter is getting harder to deal with, I have not eaten a real meal in 17 days. There back and by there I mean the voices. Telling me to kill me self and your worthless even worse my dream last night Liam did not know existed, he said you nothing to me, I HATE YOU!! The worse part of me dream is that he told me he had s*x with Sophia, when we were dating. That's the worse thing. I don't now if he would do that, my trust with Liam is slowly getting weak. I do love him its just dose he love me? I know we are dating but, he could have anyone in the world. Why me. Out of everyone he chose me. I want to tell him how I truly feel but, I'm scared, of him breaking up with me why I would have those dreams. I don't know. But I know my love for Liam has grown 1000x stronger, all I need now is his trust.

Talk to you next time,
Ashlynn Irwin

What is she talking about I never had s*x with Sophia. Why dose she think I said that stuff I never ever will say anything think that ever. I put it back where I found it and saw my hat on the coffee table, I grabbed it and put it on when I heard

" What are you doing in here. " Ashlynn's voice rung my ears

" Niall lost my hat but I found it "

" Oh. Do you think I'm a whore "

" What no. What makes you think your a whore " I asked

" I'm so ugly why do you love me why me out of everyone " she cried out

" Cause I love you. I don't love anyone but you. Your the only girl I have eyes for, The only one who gets me for me. I love your smile, the way you laugh, how when you get embarrassed you turn your head. Your lips and your curves, your body turns almost all the lads on when you walk around in your bikini after you tan. I love when you walk around in nothing but my jerseys and hoodies. I love everything about you and all your little things. "

(A/N I had to I'm sorry )

She came up to me and started crying I picked her up and sat on the couch. Her head in my lap, my hand going though her hair. She fell asleep again and I shortly followed her.

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