Conflicted

Four

It had been a week since I had spoken to Adrian or even interacted with him. Not that it hurts or makes me life worse by not seeing him but it made me feel weird inside. Parts of me craved his attention at times, to be able to touch his rough skin again, feel it on mine simply. I wanted to look into those eyes, the ones that catch me in a daze too many times. I wasn't supposed to feel this way for this boy, want to touch him, crave his attention. Yet here I am doing the exact opposite, wanting these things.

Today was my first day back to school, why? Well having healing ribs can be quite painful at times, sorry all the time. Looking in the mirror I made sure I looked decent enough after what had happened. I guarantee rumours would have spread all around the school about what happened. That's not the thing I'm mostly worried about, we'll you'll never guess what, more should I say who I was more worried about...

Mason

My parents had gotten the police involved meaning they would have gone to him, I don't even know what's happening, are my parents pressing charges? Has he been threatened or told off? I don't even know but either way I know whatever the outcome was that he would be dead on my tracks once I return. He would definitely want to kill me, if his intentions back then wasn't to kill me they will be now.

Taking a deep breath I t headed downstairs walking into the kitchen. My brother merely stood on his phone, biting into an apple. "Morning lil bro" he spoke not taking his eyes away from the gadget one bit. "Morning" I replied, my voice ragged and sharp. I wasn't ready for this, I wasn't ready for all the eyes to be on me, ready to hear the rumours that had been spoke around. It scared me, I was never the main talk or in the eye of the school, well not until now.

However that dreadful time soon came, standing outside of the main entrance. Already seeing and hearing whispers as people walked past. Taking a deep breath I walked through the double doors, the corridor became silent. Not a single voice could be heard as I walked. Gulping it was completely how I had imagined it, I had became the main talk of the school. Looking down I didn't wanna catch anyone's eyes as I made my way to my locker. Quickly opening it chatter soon became louder as kids went on with their intentions. Pulling out what I needed and putting back what I didn't I closed my locker. Quickly looking at my phone I checked the time only to see I had five minutes until the bell rang.

Walking forward I collided with something hard, like a wall almost. Stumbling back I quickly put my phone in my back pocket before meeting the unknown humans eyes.

Mason

My heart stopped, my nerves rose as he smirked, his hand clenched on my locker door. "Oh look who finally returned" his voice was sharp, pissed. Shaking my head I took another step back only to be barricaded by Masons arms, each one next to my head. He was alone this time, just me and him alone in the corridor. "M-Mason I can explain" before I could finish his hand had gripped my chin forcefully, his nails digging into my skin. "Shut it" he spat, his voice loud and demanding. Trying to yank my head out of his grasp this only caused him to grip onto my chin tighter.

Looking down I had a plan, quickly lunging my knee upwards my plan was immediately torn away as his knee slammed in between my thighs. I couldn't help but groan in pain to this feeling, I didn't like it, I could feel my stomach turn. Leaning down his lips grazed my ear, his breath trailing down my neck, a shiver shooting down my spine. "Now you listen to me and you listen carefully" his voice only made me shake, tears brimming my eyes as his knee rose higher coming in contact with my crotch.

Gulping I attempted to push him away only for him to slam me back into the lockers. A strained groan escaping my lips, biting my bottom lip. "If you ever get the police on me again I will fucking kill you, you understand" gulping I quickly nodded only to have his face sneer. "Speak" he shouted, his voice echoing through my ears as pain shot through my body. "I understand" chuckling he leaned into my ear one more time. "I'm glad we understand each other" with that he pushed his knee up one more time before letting me go, walking away not looking back.

My knees felt weak, my body colliding with the hard flooring. Tears escaping my eyes, hands over my mouth. I was done for, I'm fucked. Taking a few deep breaths I pulled myself up, looking around I made sure no one was in the corridor before I made my way out of school. I couldn't be there, not right now. It was all to overwhelming, I couldn't handle it. Taking a few more deep breath I stopped, hands on my knees. Tears slipping down my cheeks onto the hard concrete.

I hated my life, why did it have to be me, why was I the one god chose to make look like this, give a hard time at school. Why was I the one they chose to pick on, bully for no reason. Wiping my cheeks I stood myself up, the bitter breeze biting my fragile skin. Just as I thought the tears were done more had escaped, sobs escaping my tongue, pain ripping through my throat with every sob. My vision becoming blurry as I stood there, my hands shaking as I wiped my tears only to have them replaced.

A hand had interlocked with mine, the other one pulling me around, pulling my body into theirs. My head rested in their neck, their scent invading my nose. The familiar cologne soon relaxed me, made me feel safe. "Breath" his husky voice spoke, Adrian's fingers trailing through my hair. Placing my hands on his shoulders I soon found myself taking in his scent again and again. His fingers not once leaving my hair, relaxing me completely. Soon pulling away his hands made their way down to my hips, resting there with ease. Sniffling I quickly wiped my nose, I probably looked like shit.

"S-Sorry" I softly spoke not wanting to embarrass myself anymore than I already had. I didn't know what to do, I didn't want to go home, I didn't want to go back into school either. "What are you doing out of lesson" I asked looking up to meet his gaze. He simply smiled ruffling my hair softly "what I usually do, smoke" rolling my eyes I found myself asking a question I'd never thought I would "can I h-have one" this made him look at me with a raised eyebrow. "Oh didn't know the little one smoked" he merely commented with a smirk.

Pushing his body lightly away I couldn't help but let my lips tug upwards. "I don't, just wanna try one" meeting his gaze again his lips had been replaced with a smile. "I see, come on then" he quickly grabbed my hand interlocking our fingers. Tugging me away from school I found myself looking down at our hands as he pulled me along. His hand was much bigger than mine, my fingers looked tiny between his, it made me flush in a way. Biting my bottom lip I looked back up only to find us by a truck.

Pulling me around to the passenger seat he opened the door. Giving him one more glance i simple got in, sitting down on the comfortable seat. The ride to wherever we was headed was quiet, a comfortable quiet. I couldn't help but find myself looking at his hands as they gripped the steering wheel, his hand pulling on the gear stick. Soon enough he noticed, a smirk rising on his lips. Pulling on the gear stick one more time I watched as his hand gripped onto my thigh.

Quickly compressing my lips before a soft moan escaped them. His fingers slowly trailing down between my thighs, squeezing them. Covering my mouth with my hand i quickly looked out of the mirror, my eyes looking everywhere but him. A soft chuckle escaped his tongue as he squeezed my thigh one more time. A restrained groan had managed to pass my lips, my cheeks immediately flushing red with embarrassment. I don't know what this boys intentions were but he had definitely completed them. Biting my bottom lip once more time I hadn't realised the car had stopped.

Looking down Adrian's hand had gone, suddenly gripping onto my chin. Making me look his way, our faces inches from each other. His thumb grazing my bottom lip causing me to stop biting it, his eyes flickering down before coming back up again.

"Do that one more time and I won't be able to hold back"