Your pov:
my eyes opened automatically and i woke up i bilinked a few times and realized i was sleeping on someone
I look up to see who it is... its ghost he was still sleeping
oh gosh... you immediately got off
U can't tell if ur happy or scared
Ur happy that you were technically cuddling
but ur scared that if he finds out he'll think of u as a creep and will also hate you more than he already does
U knew he hates being touched u were now starting to get sweaty from being scared u didn't want them to look at you in that kinda way..but u were sure you slept against the couch last night how did you wake up on his shoulder?
You thought that maybe you moved during your sleep but u would've woke up if u moved so much you kept looking at him wondering what he would do if he found out u slept on his shoulder
"Would he be angry and start shouting at me?"
"Would he remember everything that happened to him and be sad ? I would feel horrible" "Would he be happy or calm about it?"
"would he look at me in a different, bad way? Will the others find out and also look at me in a bad way? I couldn't live with myself if that happened.." al those thoughts ran through ur mind
You decided to ignore it and realized maybe u were overthinking you just slept on his shoulder nothing else..
You got up and went to ur room to get ready
U showered and changed ur clothes
ur wearing a a black sweatshirt with a black tank top and black cargo pants
you don't really like ur body you avoid looking at it you are a bit on the chubby side and ur ashamed of that
You sighed as so many negative thoughts have already ran through your mind even tho you've been up for barely an hour
U went out ur room and went to the kitchen and saw soap cooking breakfast
"Ur up early" soap said
"Oh yeah i just woke up randomly" you said
"that's good i'll make u breakfast so we can eat together"
"Oh I don't think i can i have to train with ghost" you said as you felt a little nervous thinking about him
"Don't worry he's somehow asleep today he's still sleeping you can wait until he wakes up and gets ready" soap said
"What do you mean "somehow"?" You asked
"Don't tell him i told you but he told me before he has a problem with sleeping no matter how tired he is he can't sleep he always thinks and remembers everything at night so he can't sleep"
"Owh my i feel so sorry for him" you said
You can't believe it this man goes through so much u never felt so sorry for someone in ur life before his life is just horrible u felt a pain in ur heart as you thought of all the things he has gone through you just wanted to hug him and tell him how much you appreciate him and how worth he is you loved him and didn't want him to go through this all you want is to comfort him,show him love,hug him, tell him he's worth it,and make him feel safe and warm
But u knew he didn't like to be touched and he wouldn't show anyone his weak side and you understand him for that you loved him and adored him you wanted the best for him ( this is how I actually feel about ghost man 😭)
You were snapped out of ur thoughts
"So let's not wake him up and wait for him wake up who knows the last he fell asleep" soap said
"Yeah i agree.." you said
"Cool! By the way are you ok?" Soap asked
"Yeah im fine" you said
................
Soap has now finished cooking and u guys were now sitting at the table
Soaps back facing the door and you infront of him
You were eating peacefully when from the corner of your eye you saw someone in the doorway staring at you
You looked up to see it was ghost
You felt ur stomach drop thinking about what happened earlier and that he maybe found out about it so you immediately turned ur head down and back at ur food soap noticed you look in the doorway so his eyes traveled there and saw ghost
"Oh hey ghost! How was ur sleep buddy?" Soap asked
"Good" ghost said
You didn't dare to look at him u we're beyond scared
"Coool come have some breakfast with us" soap said
"Im good y/n quick we need to train" ghost said
You felt goosebumps as he yelled your name
"Yessirimcoming" you said fastly not even looking at him
He went out before you as you followed him
"Thanks for the food soap it was delicious " you said
"Anytime y/n" soap said
You were now outside and reached the training area
You both started hitting towards each other
Time skip (2 hrs later)
U were now done with training and we're heading back to the base
You usually tired to talk to him at this time but today u didn't dare
You guys entered quietly not saying anything to each other
you went to ur room to take a shower and rest a little
Ghosts pov:
My eyes fluttered opened as i felt relaxed I haven't slept i such a long time it felt good to sleep again
I looked around me and remembered what happened last night
Oh..no.. y/n is here
Y/n... she probably woke up on my shoulder oh god no no no no no
Shes gonna think im a creep!
Oh god what do i do
I hope that she moved during her sleep and didn't realized jeez
I got up and went to my room
oh god i have to train with her thats gonna be hard
It's ok i just need to act normal
i got ready to train and also to face her.. man im so dumb
I started to look for her and i saw her in the kitchen having breakfast with soap
I stood in the doorway as she looked at me and immediately back down at her plate
GREAT
She hates me i made her uncomfortable i can't believe myself
oh my god im so sorry
Great job simon
i was feeling a weird feeling in my stomach and i didn't like it
Soap then followed y/ns gaze and looked at me
"Oh hey ghost! How was ur sleep buddy?" Soap said
"Good" i said he must've seen me sleeping
"Coool come have breakfast with us" soap said
"Im good y/n quick we need to train" i said before even thinking i didn't wanna stutter and look stupid
"Yessirimcoming" y/n said as quick as possible and not even looking at me
..... that really hurt
It's my fault
I truly hate myself
I felt my chest tighten
And this weird feeling in my stomach came back
I decided to just go infront of her outside and wait for her
She followed me and we reached the training area
and we started
2 hrs later and we were walking back to the base she usually tryed to talk to me at this time but not today man i feel like i wanna kill some one i wanna kill my self for this she just kept her head down without saying anything it's all my fault
Every time she did talk i was rude to her..
I felt like killing a whole army right now i wanna cut people,stab them repeatedly, and take out this weird feeling on them
We both reached the base and entered quietly i watched her as she went to her room
I also went to mine to take a shower and get my mind off things and apologize after
I know she knows so im just gonna go apologize later and hopefully get her back to talk to me normally i started to feel a little better imagining her smiling at me ever so lovingly while accepting my apology i smiled at the thought of her smile it made my stomach feel warm now
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That was part 3 hope you enjoyed!
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"Tough love" Simon riley x reader
RomanceYou love him but he isn't ready at least thats what he thinks But in reality he doesn't understand that he loves you and has a hard time showing it (Short story) Warning ⚠️: the writer was stupid while making this
