You love him but he isn't ready at least thats what he thinks
But in reality he doesn't understand that he loves you and has a hard time showing it
(Short story)
Warning ⚠️: the writer was stupid while making this
(Please watch the video☝🏻☝🏻) WARNING:mentions of sucide and getting beaten up Stills ghosts pov: 9:45 AM The movie is done and i feel like i really need space I couldn't focus on the movie I just couldn't. I felt like setting the world on fire and leaving I want to break things I want the world to end I hate everything at this moment even y/ns presence i need space I didn't say anything i got up from the couch and went outside I hope she won't follow me i don't wanna say something that will probably hurt her I got outside It was still day time and that annoyed me I decided to go on a walk
Y/ns pov: 9:45 AM The movie just finished We both sat there for a few seconds Until ghost just got up and left he went outside oh no i think i might've annoyed him Maybe i should've given him space Maybe he didn't wanna take a nap with me but felt forced to oh god no I should probably leave why do i always do this? Why do i always ruin everything for myself? i'll just wait for him to come back I curled up on the couch I waited for him for hours but he didn't come back i started overthinking and as i did i slowly fell asleep
Ghosts pov: I've been out for like 11 hours now I've been sitting on a bench in a small park after walking for 2 hours It was like 9:00 pm right now but i still don't wanna go back to that house As i was walking I remembered a place i used to go to It was a lake that i used to go to when i was younger to clear my mind for a bit i used to go there while my parents were asleep I still remember exactly where it was It was in the woods behind the house I decided to go to the woods Even though i wasn't exactly sure where the lake was i knew once i get into the woods i will find my way
Im now in the woods looking for the lake there it is... My comfort place i smiled a little remembering how beautiful it always was
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I got closer and laid my jacket on the grass and sat on it I sighed feeling relaxed i felt the cold wind rush through me The smell of mud And the sound of the water all so peaceful i felt everything wash away from me I wish i could always feel like this I inhaled and exhaled multiple times I remembered i left y/n alone at home I didn't panic tho i didn't want it to ruin this moment where i finally feel calmed I want to go and get here to come with me i wish i had the guts to tell her everything about me Every. Single. Thing I wish i had the guts to take off my mask at least She probably thinks i don't trust her i do i'm just... Scared? I don't know She may not like the way i look Or will probably think im sick if i tell her what goes through my mind I suddenly started crying I don't why that happened But I haven't cried in along time so i guess i want to let it out And im gonna take the chance since im alone How i think about murdering everyone in a slow,painfull way when im not in the mood or i just don't like anything at the time She may judge me Even though i know how pure and sweet she is you never know and shes not so pure she has seen violence and murder She has heard disgusting words i wish me and her can just be in a world alone just us two in a world where it's like this Cold wind,the smell of mud,the sound of the water, and trees hanging above us two Just me and her That would be perfect I love her and she loves me We won't judge each other We will trust each other with our lives And we both will love every.single.thing about each other the perfect world i love her but i don't know i can't ask her to be my girlfriend And theres no way i will be able to tell her i love her She doesn't deserve that i feel like im doing anything to be loved I feel like i don't deserve to be loved especially by someone like her i don't know I love her alot though and if i could actually explain myself and tell her how much i love her i would never shut up My tears stopped and i felt relieved i don't know what to say to describe my love for her For some reason she holds my heart and she actually takes care of it She never hurt my feelings at all She never hurt anyones feeling from the team Every one on the team loves her i love her alot i hope she feels the same way.. 2 hours of thinking later While thinking i heard some leaves cracking immediately and my hand went towards my gun to be ready for whoever it was I looked to see who it was....
