A New Beginning

Chapter 8

Hi everyone! Here is chapter 8! Enjoy!

ATHENA PARKS

Exams were over, dissertations were sent, results were already received...all of this could only mean one thing, my first year at Stanford was finally over! I had survived and managed to pass with flying colours. I didn't know how I did it, with everything going on in my head, but the most important part was that it was finally over! I was really looking forward to the next few days to end quickly, I was going to visit my family, I had already booked my flight and I was ready to go!

I really needed to go away from this world for a while, my friends could still see each other during the holidays, since none of them needed a plane to travel to each other. In a way, I was glad that I wasn't going to see them, I would be back in exactly a month, a week before the start of the new year. Most of my friends had already returned to their homes and there was only James, Bree and I left. How lovely! I was so lucky, seeing these two make out all day long, was nothing more than pure pleasure, don't you think?

I was hanging out mostly at the library or Starbucks, anywhere but in my room or the campus. The staff at the coffee shop knew me well, as well as the librarian who turned out to be a very kind woman, compared to what the rumours might say. Prior to the day of my departure, James and I were at the library. His girlfriend, being gone on the eve, made him realise that he had forgotten to return his book back. I made a great mistake of leaving my laptop open, on the table where we were settled, when I went to the bathroom. To my horror, when I came back, I saw James reading all my unposted blogs! All of them!

Walking slowly, I went behind him and closed it rapidly enough so that he could barely have time to remove his fingers. I was as enraged as the Hulk. I wondered whether I would be able to maintain my anger and avoid turning green and increase my height by several feet but to be honest, I didn't care.

-Ath...I... muttered James apologetically.

-Don't. I snapped. Just be lucky that I'm going away tomorrow.

I packed my things angrily, all I wanted to do was to get away before I would say things that I would regret afterwards.

-Ath...I'm sorry, I just peaked and-

-Spare me the explanations James, I don't even want to hear your voice, right now...I said as I walked away.

-Athena! Wait!

-What do you want?

-Look, why are you making such a big deal out of this? I didn't do anything bad...I just-

He was right. Why was I making such a big deal out of this? I wasn't angry because he had read my blogs. I actually wouldn't have minded his opinion on them but I was mad. I just didn't know about what...I was lost but I knew that I never wanted to see him again, but also that I craved to make a last dramatic ending scene for him and for this library. My bag on my shoulders, tears threatening my eyes, I said what every great character said at least once,

-I can't believe I fell for you...don't call me.

With that, I ran out, leaving James, stupefied. It was only when I reached my student house that I started thinking about what I had just done. Had I just confessed my love for him out of anger? How stupid was that? After all those efforts not to tell him, I absolutely had to say it before the last day! What was wrong with me? The worst of all was that I used a movie quote to say it! How was it going to be a month from now when I got back? It would be so awkward. Had I just lost my best friend? Was he mad? Would it be just back to normal when I got back? Would he ignore me? Was it over? What have I done!? How could I let this happen!? He probably hated me right now, he hadn't called or ran after me...that was it. It was over, wasn't it?