The Girl Suitor [ON GOING]

TGS: Second Kiss

I can't stop thinking about what I have just read.. like it transcends all over my body causing it to be weak. After all these years, he had the nerve to message me something like that?

Ni hindi ba niya naisip na wala nang kwenta iyon, with his sudden interest in my life speaks a lot. Sigurado akong may ibig sabihin ang mga iyon, I bet.. I bet he's planning something! Dahil imposibleng sa haba ng panahon na hindi kami nag-usap ay bigla lang siyang magpaparamdam!

We haven't talk for like 2 or 3 years? I don't know, I lost count!

But why am I suddenly so affected with it? As if namang nagre-reach out siya para makipagbalikan sa akin. Because hell will break loose before that happens. I'm fucking over him! Hindi pa ba malinaw iyon?

Wala na nga ba talaga?

That's what I hate about moving on, because all of us tries to heal ourselves and rebuild what we lost, but one word from those people who hurt us? It all comes back to zero. It's like everything you've achieved crumbles down.

Laging may umeepal. Laging may hadlang.

Kahit anong tatag ng barriers na ginawa mo, they'll just easily break it using their words, bakit ang hirap kalimutan nang mga taong minahal mo ng sobra pero sinaktan ka lang?

Why is loving unfair?

Dapat madali na lang natin sila makalimutan kasi puro sakit lang ang dinala nila sa atin, hindi naman saya pero ano, ang bottomline, mahal kasi natin.

Fuck love, I really hate love, I don't want to feel love! Matagal ko nang binaon sa lupa ang pakiramdam ng nagmamahal. Kahit kailan hindi ko na matututunang magmahal uli,

Hindi na muli.

"Ate are you okay?" nag-angat ang tingin ko kay Justin na pababa ng hagdan, he grabbed his Ipad while looking at me

Hilaw akong ngumiti bago siya niyakag papuntang kitchen, "Yeah, let's go. Help me in the kitchen,"

I knew that what I said isn't convincing enough pero alam kong kilala na ako ni Justin, he probably knows that I've read something regarding my ex kaya ako nagkakaganito. Well, he's right.

True to what I said, tumulong ako sa nangyaring paghahanda ng pagkain. The helpers focused on cooking the main courses for our lunch habang ako naman ay naging abala sa magiging dessert. I tried baking Butterbeer pie and some Smores with the help of Justin, nagkatuwaan pa nga kami at naglaro ng flour kaya may kaunting kalat naiwan sa kitchen

We were mixing the ingredients when I felt someone looking at us, pinakaramdaman ko iyon at napansin na nakadirekta iyon sa akin. I turned around to see who it is and saw my mother. Nakasandal siya sa hamba ng kitchen at nakangiting pinagmamasdan kami, Justin still hasn't notice that someone's staring at us.

Mabilis kong iniwas ang tingin dahil sa ngiti na ibinibigay niya, I felt my heart thumped pero binalewala ko iyon. I tried to refrain myself from smiling but it just voluntary showed. Sandali lang iyon dahil napansin ni Justin,