Her eyes

chapter 7

Third pov

She heart felt heavy,her friend don't know she got depression,anxiety and other mental health issues,that is the reason her mother didn't want her to leave,she can have a panic attack and they will not be able to help her

She lays in her bed with her cuddle buddy,she can't sleep alone so her mother made her a cuddle buddy making sure that it has a heartbeat cause it calms her down

She is not okay but she does not want people pity her,she can handle her self she says."Good morning mama...I am okay...I just miss you guys''she said in a voice note

Sitting in bed the whole day,her mind and body was not functioning well,she misses her family this cause her depression to increase,watched video of her and her family

She wanted to prove that she can handle her self but it is becames hard as she was alone,she did have friends but still felt alone,she was fighting the thoughts that tells her to end her live that she is not worth living

That she will always be a black sheep of the family,that she has nothing to live for so why is she still here,she does not cry but her heart it giving out

She bathed and wore a black cargo pants and a white crop top with long sleeves and black Soviet sneaks,she did not what to go anymore but if she did not she will go crazy

Enzo knocked on the door,she opened the door with a fake smile cause she does not what anyone knowing her problem,she tried being joyful as he know she is

"Hello you"she said"Hi you look beautiful today"Enzo said,he can tell something is wrong but did not say anything cause he can see the smile did not reach her eyes

"Don't says I am beautiful,that word is overrated,I heard it so much that it does not leave butterflies anymore so tell me I look breathtaking or worth looking  then I will blush not beautiful" she said looking in his eyes

"Noted,ready to go" he said while moving his hand to her,she took it

"Can we see stars after we are done"she said while looking outside the window"Okay we will,would you like anything else"he asked thinking she would look he him

"No thanks" she said as lately by Witt Lowry played,she hummed to the song

They got to the picnic side,it was under a tree with light hanging,they looked like stars.Their was a blanket and junk foods,she fell in love with the lights

"This is beautiful"she said still looking at the place'' it is and trust me it took time" he responded"you did this?"she asked surprise "can you please do to my bedroom like this" she said

''Anything to make you happy''he said,they seat down"What is wrong with you your eyes are  not shining what happened and don't tell me nothing''

"I just miss my family but I will be fine"

"Why did you agree to this date cause I thought you hate me?"he is kind of surprised

"Cause you are nice yet you are crazy but calm,selfish but loving,guilty but innocent you are many things''she said looking straight in his eyes

"You see me like that,well that's a first" he said surprised,he was surprised by the woman in front of him,she was truly special

"What is your favourite colour?" she asked tried to change the atmosphere it worked

"Grey,yours"he responds

"Blue" she said

"Why,I thought you would say black cause most of your clothes are black" he said

"Cause it has may feature you never know which one I am talking about,it's like me just when you think you know me I turn to be different"

"You just keep on surprising me what is next you are going to tell me that you are are secret agent" he said,she laughed so hard that tears started to come out

"It will be terrible if I told you"she said"and I am not,that line of work needs me to work a lot and I don't like that"

They talked for four hours and they both had fun.Sharlot was feeling better and her depression decreased,she laughed a lot even to his uncle jokes

" Let's go see stars their are more beautiful at 11 pm it's a time were their are covering the sky the most" she said while helping Enzo pack things

"How do you know that? and you won't stop would you?" he said

"Me and Lor watched stars a lot''she said with a smile remembering all the time they had

" That sounds fun,we can make it our thing" he said

"Yeah no I can't,we can find something we both like and make it our thing"she said

They went and watch stars until it was 1:13am.Then went home to sleep.......