Surrender || A brotherhood

Ch.20 Grieving

Everyone grieve differently

Justin POV
I cleaned the tables I cleaned everything I clean and cleaned into the night

Justin go to bed babe Grace said

No I yelled snapping

Honey you've been awake for 48 since your dad died Grace said

I slide down the wall as tears enveloped me

Honey Grace ran over to me

3rd POV
Justin and Grace sit in each others arms around crying in them. Losing someone you love is hard but it even harder doing what they loved

Justin POV
My eyes fluttered open I was in bed I was in Graces bed

I opened my eyes wide and I see Grace in the doorway with pair of firefighters pants on and suspender with Lacey bra on. At this point I needed a distraction from the pain of everything

Hey babe Grace said walked to me

She started kissing me up and down. We made out for good solid thirty minutes until the door bell ran

We both walked to the door I opened the teams were there with pizza and sodas

Guys you don't have to do this I said

Captain Copper POV
We sat in large circle

I know we're grieving a loss. So today I invited my friend Molly one of the therapist to come help us today. Because we don't grieve by ourselves our brother Justin needs us I said

Molly POV
Hey guys I understand your hurting losing your chief. The one I'll say everyone grieve differently. Denial anger Bargaining Depression Acceptance. Justin may start with depression but then Grace could be angry

I'm angry Micheal said

Evans right I said

Yeah Micheal said

Why are you angry? I asked

How many more damn firefighter have to die before i can breathe again Evans cried

This job is notorious to be dangerous you run in when other run in. Everyday death the grim ripper breath done your back expecting slip up I said

On September 11th 2001 NYFD ran into the burning Twin Tower. The many people they walked past they went to sacarfice Grace said crying

We signed a death certificate even before we signed on to the job Joshua said using dark humor to cheer everyone up

Justin POV
Justin how are you feeling? Molly asked

Hopeless sad angry in denial. He calls me every day morning and night so lay awake until he does. I said

Your grieve is valid and we support you. What a happy memory of your dad? Molly asked me

He kept the Christmas tree up all year around but decorated it differently I said

Molly POV
Personally sometimes when I'm feeling depressed and missing my loved one I say a story about there life. Grace your dad Adam Wesley passed away my wife Amber told do you have favorite memories I asked

Umm he sung me to bed he Hush little don't you cry MAD gonna make me mocking bird Grace sung

Joshua have you lost someone and what the best memories of them I asked

Yeah my mom she died of cancer my favorite memories would be the time she taught me how to make cookies. So when it was here finale days I got the recipes made them. I brought to them and I'm glad her cookies were in her belly when she died Joshua said

Bella what about you? I asked

My grandpa was very close to me founders memories is I would get upset and he would place on his lap and played music I laid mr head on his Chester hearing the tempo made me fall asleep Bella said

Jonathan what about you? I asked

My older brother to suicide this past year going to vacation always the best snacks on the road Bella said

I looked around studying there eyes

Jonathan what about you? I said

I lost my dad last year he taught how to play the guitar Jonathan said

And Jillian? I asked

My mom to dementia best memories laying her chest listening to her heart beat Jillian said

And Daniel I asked

Captain are trained to be emotionless but I'm hear to tell we have emotions. I treat as my own family. Losing my dad was really he too was firefighter Daniel said

Can we have pizza Joshua said making everyone laugh

Sure with all this trauma talk I'm hungry I said

Justin POV
I didn't feel like eating so I went outside

Daniel followed me

Son your good I said

I'm fine I said

Your not fine you lost your dad it okay to be sad Daniel said

I miss him a lot I cried

When you go to the fire academy you have spot on my team Daniel said

Thanks I said

Hey Babe Grace said

Hi I said

I wanna get away for awhile Grace said

Like trip I said

No yeah a trip Grace said

We already have tripes when we have adventure in the bedroom I said

My fifteen birthday is coming up Grace said sitting on my lap

I'll see if some of my buddy would come up with us I said

I just wanted it to be is Grace said

Okay I like that I said

Grace said
Ehh sorry to interrupt but I'm giving leave of absence for a week Dad said

Okay I said

We need to finalize the adoption soon Dad said

I agree I said

Where do you want to go? Justin asked

Something with thick walls because whole how fun it'll be with you in bed I said bitting my lip

Get a room Everest said

You were literally grinding Olivia your girlfriend last night I said

That's different Everett said

So I'm not naked in the kitchen I said

We were baking Everett said

That really makes sense the saying bun in the oven I said making everyone laugh

I'll set the reservation up I said

I can't wait to spend the entire weekend with girl Justin said

I blushed