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Colors

 Once you stumbled into my life, my world was turned rightside up. Because of you, my life was seen in a new, colorful hue. Before you stepped into my life, everyday was gray and monotonous. After you walked into my life, my dull eyes switched lenses. From dark and listless, my eyes shone brightly with happiness and a renewed will to live.

The very moment I met you was the instant I saw life in a new light. Because of you, I felt truly motivated to put my all in everything. Your words prompted me to try my hardest in everything I do, even when I want to give up on it all. In my worst times, I always remembered your words in that text. I remember when we were playing twenty questions and you didn't know how to play the game so you asked me "do you try your hardest in everything?" To your question, I told you that I didn't try my hardest in everything. Next, you asked me if I was willing to try my hardest in everything. After some thought, I answered with yes. Then, you asked me if I will try my hardest in everything. I told you I will. This was the moment that became memorialized in my brain. This exchange would be one of the exchanges I would remember when I want to give up on everything. These words would help flip my lenses from a hopeless gray to a hopeful yellow. Over and over again my implied promise rang through my mind in my darkest times.

Every exchange I exchanged with you was one I eagerly anticipated. Any excuse, every excuse to talk to you I took. Even if it was the smallest thing like showing you the moonlight jellies in "Stardew Valley," I showed you. I knew you probably didn't have any idea of what I was talking but I just wanted to have more time with you, pretty boy. Thank you for going along with my nonsense and humoring me, Tavi. Your notification was my favorite. I always jumped at every chance to see you in person, like seeing you at lunch or outside of school on a date. When you stayed true to your word to sit with me and my friends at lunch, that made my day. I couldn't help but compare you to our friend.

I appreciate you, pretty boy. Thank you for enabling my silliness, Tavi. From the little time I have known you since the day I met you in the auditorium when Mrs. Tavares and Mr. Nastasi were both out for the day. Every change I had with you has left me smiling and eagerly anticipating the next exchange. I am grateful for every moment we have spent together. The very sight of your notification leaves me giddy with happiness. I feel like the sun shines over me everytime I'm around you. You color my vision with a hopeful yellow.