Dont know anymore (complete)

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When I signed the papers making Abel my legal son I took it and I ran with it.

I headed over to Jax's place since he told me any time I wanted to spend time with Abel that I could come over and pick him up.

and since I'm off work today I'm taking that opprutinuty.

I stood outside Jax's door after knocking.

"Well you're here early" he says

"wanna spend al the time with him as I can while I have free time" I tell Jax

He smiled before stepping back allowing me to come in.

"he still sleeping?" I asked

"Yeah" he says

"how has he been doing?" I asked

"Well as you know I had called everything off with Tara. she left town and hopefully will stay gone. you've been here every single day weather its before your shift at the hospital or after. and I honestly couldn't thank you enough. He enjoys you being here and so do I" Jax says

I smiled.

"are you both doing ok?" I asked

"I'm good, he's enjoying the attention you are giving him. he's enjoying you spoiling him and to be honest I'm jealous" he says

I chuckled as we sat on his love seat.

"why?" I asked

"cause I want a beautiful woman to give me attention like you give our son" he says

I looked him before I leaned forward cupped his face and started kissing him.

He pulled me close and deepened the kiss.

 we was filling each other up and getting each other all hot and bother when little guy woke up.

"I'll get him you deal with big boy there" I say before I climbed off Jax's lap.

"are you calling my cock big boy?" he asked

"its not tiny from the feeling of it poking me" I replied before I walked down the hallway.

when I got closer to Abel's crib he and I both got all excited.

"look at you handsome boy" I say as I carefully picked him up and covered his little face in kisses.

I checked his diaper and changed him into a cute little outfit.

Jax walked up behind me and placed his hands on my hips.

"wanna do this for endless nights?" he asked

"I'd love to" I say as I picked Able up.

"live with us then," he says

"you sure? I mean I don't wanna be a rebound or anything cause your shitty ex" I tell him

"I'm absolutely positive," he says

I turned so I was looking at him.

"I won't be an easy hole for you to fuck Jackson. and if that's all you want from me then I'll only co-parent with you as I have been. " I tell him

"if you were an easy hole you'd be a pornstar or croweater. which you're not you are a smart intelligent woman who loves my son as if he was birthed by you. and I've kept my true feelings for you quiet long enough" he says

"meaning?" I asked

"for the longest time since knowing and meeting you I've developed a crush on you. but you were with Opie and he's my best friend as well as my brother. so I stayed quiet and with Tara which was a huge mistake. but as time went on I realized its no crush its love. and I mistook it for a crush. With you here now and you as my son's legal mother I want to be with you." he says

"why didn't you say anything that night you was at my place?" I asked

"didn't want you to think I'm saying it just cause of the news you told me Tara was gonna do" he says

"so now what?" I asked

"you move in. you become my ol'lady, you and I see where things goes as Abel has both parents in the same house as him. and we go from there" he says

"you don't think Opie will be upset since I'm his ex and there is some sort of bro code or something?" I asked

"I've told him when I went to the clubhouse after leaving your place that night and he told me to go for it. that he made a mistake of not fighting to keep you and for basically abandoning you when you needed him most." he says

"alright, we'll do it. and I promise you the first time you cheat you'll regret it" I say

"he kissed me before we took Abel into the kitchen and warmed him up a bottle then sat there a bit talking about how everything will go now before he had to head off to the garage and clubhouse.