14 days

Day 8 - Morning - Lunch

DAY 8 – Morning – Lunch

I woke up alone on the bed with the blanket covering my naked body. I checked if Ivan's things were still in the room. I felt relieved when I saw them. He didn't leave. I immediately recalled what happened last night. It was one of the best nights in my life, and the most fulfilling, too. 'Yun bang parang napunan 'yung isang butas na nararamdaman ko.

Last night, I gave myself completely. Iyon naman talaga ang usapan namin ni Ivan. Sasagutin niya ang titirhan ko habang nagliliwaliw ako, in exchange of having me on his bed. Pero 'yung kagabi? It was more than that cheap deal. Naramdaman ko na special iyon and I know it was special for him, too. He didn't even leave me after that. He took care of me. He slept and cuddled with me. He wasn't disgusted because I am not as pure as the Virgin Mother.

I bit my lip when I realized that I am really starting to invest feelings for him. Alam ko na parehas lang kami ni Ivan ng nararamdaman. I know because a player never cuddles and stays after sex. I know because a player doesn't spend a quality time in paridise with his partner. I know because a player doesn't give light kisses on foreheads. I know because I am a player and Ivan is, too. What we're doing is unusual. It feels so good and scary at the same time. Am I even allowed to reach this point? I am not worthy of someone like Ivan. Hindi talaga. Masasaktan ko lang siya sa huli.

I got up and wore something. When I got out, I saw Ivan preparing the table. There were fried eggs and hotdogs, coffee and breads. He smiled at me when he saw me standing. I smiled back. How could I even stop feeling this way for him when just by merely seeing him makes me feel that everything's fine?

"Good morning," aniya. Lumapit siya sa akin at inalok ang kanyang kamay.

"Morning," mahinang sagot ko pabalik bago ko tanggapin ang kamay nitong nakalahad.

Inalalayan ako nitong maupo na ikinamula ng pisngi ko. Umupo ito sa tapat ko at tinitigan ako ng ilang sandali. I felt a bit conscious so I offered na kumain na kami pero nginisihan niya lang ako.

"What?" I snapped

"How can you do that?" tanong niya na nakapagpalito sa akin.

"Huh?"

"How can you be so effortlessly beautiful in the morning?"

Natameme ako sa kanyang sinabi at naramdaman ko ang biglaang pag-init ng aking pisngi. I felt uneasy but I tried to show him otherwise.

"Eh, ikaw. How can you do that?" naiilang kong tanong pabalik.

"Ang maging ganito kagwapo?" halakhak niyang tanong.

Ngumiwi ako rito. "Hindi. Ang maging banatero ng ganito kaaga? At idagdag mo na rin yung sobrang ka-feelingan."

"Unang una sa lahat, hindi ako bumabanat. Talagang maganda ka. Pangawala, gwapo ako talaga. And lastly, anong maaga? Don't you even know what time is it?" tanong niya na nakakunot ang noo.