Cope with me (l.s)

Sleepy harry

I know it's a short one sorry I'll update again later

Louis PoV-

3:24am read the clock on my phone why can't I sleep H has been down for hours now why can't I just sleep I toss and turn in the bed when I hear noise from the cot

"Lou Lou" a quite voice whispers

"Hey baby" I whisper back going to pick him up I move him so he's on the bed with me he passes me his dummy and lays his head on my chest

"What's wrong Lou why can't you sleep" he asks clearly not in headspace

"Nothing just can't" I say playing with his hair

"Tell me the truth please" he asks

"I just can't I don't know why" I say

"Tell me please what's worrying you" he says

"I'm just worried about you baby" I tell him

"Why is it because of the seizures" he says looking up at me now

"That and other things but that's not important let's try and sleep" I say trying to get him to stop pressing the issue

"Okay but you tell me if anything's bothering you anytime" he says

We stay exactly how we are, I wish I could tell him that I'm scared I'll lose him but I can't I just can't an hour later and he's back to sleep

4:30am read the time on my phone

Fuck I need to sleep I can't take care of H if I'm tiered, I try to fall asleep soon enough I wake up

11:30am reads the clock again

Fuck who let me sleep this late and shit where's H I grab my trousers and walk downstairs to the living room H is sat with my mum and Dan in the living room they're watching tv and he's playing with his cars

"Why didn't anyone wake me up" I ask walking to the sofa

"You needed the rest" my mum says

"H came and found us at 7:50 this morning I got him in the car we've dropped the girls off at school while you where sleeping" Dan says looking at me

"Thank you both really thank you" I say
I watch as Harry's eyes slowly make thier way to the back of his head i rush towards him slowly liying him down

"Shit shit he's having a seizure" I say mum and Dan now aware of it

I go to pull my phone out of my pocket but it's not there he starts sezing up

"I've got it Lou I'm already timing it" Dan says

1 minute 45 seconds

"Fuck mum can you go get me a sippy cup of water please" I say without an answer she comes back with it

"Thank you" I say taking it out her hand and placing it on the coffee table

"What happened" H asks his words slurred

"You had a seizure baby" I say

"Cuddle please" he says words still slurred I pick him up and sit on the sofa with him in my lap

"You okay" I ask
He shakes his head no

"What's wrong baby" I say
No reply

Soon enough he's asleep I can't move him I won't let go of him not now nor ever

"Lou why don't the two of you go lie down together" mum suggests I nod my head and walk upstairs still carrying him I place him in the cot and lie down on the bed I fall asleep within minutes a few hours later and we wake up I pick him up and change his nappy for a new one and put him in a white vest I don't bother putting trousers on him or a top I take him to the living room

"Hey look who's finally awake my favourite baby" dan says sat at the dinner table

"Here wanna hold him while I get my milk ready for him" I ask he takes H from my arms I grab a cup of water and my pill I slowly swallow it 20 minutes later I can tell it's ready I take H into the living room where the kids are playing and sit on the sofa with H on my lap he takes my nipple into his mouth and starts slowly sucking mum walks into the living room joining me and H on the sofa

"I hate seeing harry like this I wish there was a cure" she says

"Same but for now we just have to keep doing what we're doing" I say

He's finished with my left nipple and moves onto the right I play with his hair until he falls asleep again he must be tiered I love this boy with all my heart he's all I ever want and need