A PIECE OF YOU (Freenbecky)

Chapter 34: Reality

Samantha's pov

It has been a month since the unforgettable vacation that i have, and it has been a month of love of me and Mon altough patago nga lang, i accept that its really the reality she have a husband that she hasn't anulled yet so I'm just her little mistress it hurts sa tuwing iisipin kung isa akong kabit the only one in my family who turns to be just a mere mistress its below the belt but what can i do i just fell inlove with a married woman

I don't know how far i can hide it to my family I'm certain na Hindi magtatagal malalaman din nila yun and its gonna be a shame on me and to my family, i don't know how to tell iris kung ano ang consequences kapag nalaman ng family ko ang about samin, i know my family won't do anything na makasakit ng iba but I'm sure na pagbabawalan nila akong makita si Mon hanggang sa maging malaya ito sa kasal niya

The consequences of me breaking the rules is i cant come here anymore they would banned me for 5 years and I'm gonna work for our own hospitals in state although i love being a doctor but the fact that i cant come for 5 years are a torture kasi hindi ko makikita sa Mon sa loob ng mga taon nayun

I secretly hope na sana hindi nila malaman kung ano man ang namamagitan samin ni Mon, and i secretly wish na hiwalayan na niya agad yung asawa niya bago pa malaman ng pamilya ko ang tungkol samin, I'm fucking scared of the fact that i can't hide of what we have i know my family have many ways to know everything of what I'm doing kahit na malayo sila, specially kuya thunder mabilis siyang makaamoy na may hindi kaaya aya akong ginagawa, I'm thankful that summer, lauren and gale keep my secret but i know that walang sekreto ang hindi nabubunyag

"Sam are you alright, is their something wrong" Mon said na nagpa balik sa malalim na iniisip ko i forgot andito pala ako sa office niya and we're having lunch together, we always did this, we spent our vacant time together and also go on a date together and its always out of town para walang makakilala samin daig pa namin ang kriminal na nag tatago sa tuwing mag d-date kami but it kind of exciting though at the same time.

I'm scared, coz what if someone of my family saw as or someone that knows my family but i know ita impossible kasi lahat sila nasa states I'm just being paranoid

"Uh of course everything is alright Mon at wala namang problema may iniisip lang talaga ako"

"Are you sure coz it seems like not come on tell me" she seriously ask i cant tell it to you Mon not now

"Its nothing really, iniisip ko lang kung saan ako mag o-OJT malapit na kasi yun" sana naman maniwla siya

"Ah yeah its on monday right, you still have 5 days to choose a company quinn don't stress yourself, come here sit beside me i won't kisses" she cutely ask kaya lumapit ako dito, this side of Mon are to sweet

"Baby, you look cute while saying those words" i said smiling widely at her and then kiss her soft lips that always taste like cherry

I kiss her whole face too that makes her giggle and smile lovingly at me

"Arghh why you're so beautiful marami tuloy ang nagkakagusto sayo, and its making me jealous" frustrated na saad niya

I chuckled at her cuteness

"Begin the process of your anullment baby para sayong sayo narin ako at pwede na tayong magpakasal at para maisigaw ko sa mundo na para lanv talaga ako kay Mon Heather Clayton"
natatawang saad ko dito pero deep inside umaasa ako na gagawin niya agad coz its been one month pero parang hindi parin niya nasasabi sa soon to be ex husband niya na gusto na niyang makipag hiwalay, yes I'm rushing her kasi alam kung hindi magtatagal malalaman din ng pamilya ko ang tungkol samin

"Sam you know that its not simple right" that is always her line kapag napag uusapan namin ang tungkol sa anullment thingy niya lagi nalang pero iniintindi ko siya lagi

"I know Mon pero hindi kapa gumagawa ng paraan para sa anullment mo and hindi mo panga ata nasasabi sa asawa mo e" may hinanakit na sabi ko dito i can tell na may natitirang pagmamahal padin siya para sa asawa niya

"Oh my gosh Sam hindi nga ganun kadali yun ok, intindihin mo naman ako"

she said coldly parang piniga ang puso ko dahil sa sinabi niya,alam nyang lagi ko siyang iniintindi lagi

" Mon,i always understand you na hindi madali pero pwede mo namang simulan nang sabihin sa kanya para ma process na yung anullment paper"
i said gulping my hurt anytime my hot tears well fall and i dont want her to see me crying

She just ignored what i said and just look at me nilabanan ko yung malamig na titig niya na kanina lang nakatingin sakin ng maypagmamahal pero ngayon puro blangko na

"You love me right, and you said that you'll process the anullment paper and tell your husband that you want to separate with him, remember you said it while we're in el nido palawan Mon". naluluhang saad ko dito na nagpalambot ng expression niya

"Of course i love you Sam, never doubt my love for you" she said

"How can i not Mon, how can i not doubt your love for me kung wala kang ginagawa tungkol sa kasal niyo ng asawa mo" saad ko dito patulo na talaga yung luha ko na kanina kopa pinipigilan just one last words of her tutulo nato

"Can you please, just trust me on this Sam, i promise i process it as soon as possible" she said frustratedly, you always say that Mon but you never did

"Why are you rushing things" she continuely said

I'm rushing things coz we're running out of time Mon, gusto ko sanang sabihin yun sa kanya pero diko ginawa

Instead i said the words that makes my hot tears fall from mg blueish grey eyes

"D-do you still love him? " nauutal na saad ko dito, please say you don't Mon, please say no impit na dasal ko

Mon just is just looking at me and not saying anything she avoided my stares and remained silent

They say silent mean yes so she still love his husband and that thought makes my hot tears fall, i looked at her and i know hurt is visible in my eyes i know she saw it but she just remain silent not uttering a word

Why it hurts so much, how stupid i am to ask those word even though i know the answer, i am really stupid, i feel my heart is breaking into piece's because of her silent hinayaan ko nalang na umagos yung luha ko

It hurt so damn much.

TBC..