Chapter 47: Agony

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Mon pov

I can't believe it, i wish this is just a nightmare, Sam wouldn't leave me right? , she stay with me forever, she cant leave me, she cant, I'm crying while taking a bath

Iisipin ko palang na iiwan niya ako hindi ko na kaya, this is just a fucking dream please wake me up  from this nightmare, Sam love me so much kaya hindi niya ako iiwan

When I'm done bathing and wearing my clothes lumabas na ako ng bathroom alam kung namumugto ang mata ko sa kakaiyak pero wala akong pakialam, i saw Sam sitting at the end of the while looking at the window with sadness and pain her eyes namumugto din ang mata niya sa kakaiyak i see her tears flows down to her cheeks pero mabilis niya itong pinunasan, ramdam niya sigurong palapit ako kaya lumingon siya sakin at ngumiti ng tipid

Tiningnan ko lang siya nang may lungkot sa mga mata, how could she leave me kung mahal niya ako

Umupo ako sa kabikang dulo ng kama paharap sa kanya at mataman ko siyang tinignan
"tell me Sam that b**ch is lying hindi moko iiwan diba?"nasasaktang saad ko sa kanya at pinipigilan na wag maiyak

Napalunok siya at tiningnan ako ng mataman
"i wish she is Mon but its true I'm leaving"mahinang saad niya at malungkot akong tinignan, hindi ko na napigilang hindi tumulo ang luha ko ang sakit lang sobrang sakit na iiwan niya ako, umiyak ako ng umiyak sa harap niya nilabas ko lahat ng sakit sa iisiping iiwan niya ako

How dare she to leave me matapos niyang mangako sakin kagabi, kaya ba siya nag s-space out at malalim ang iniisip dahil iiwan niya ako iniisip niyang last natong date namin nato kaya ba niyaya niya ako sa outing nato, akmang lalapit siya sakin pero sumenyas ako na wag siyang lumapit

"F-for h-how long" garagal na tanong ko sa kanya

She's crying too the intense pain that we're feeling right now is to much

"To l-long Mon, and i wish you can wait f-for me, please say that you can wait for me Mon" she said while sobbing and pleading

"I said for h-how long Sam" i repeat my question kasi hindi naman niya sinagot ng maayos yung tanong ko

"F-five y-years I'm banned to go here for five years, i-i broke the rules just to be with you Mon" she said and crying hard what she said makes me cry more, she'll gonna leave me for fucking 5 years damn her

"What kind of rules Sam huh? Why didn't you tell me"

"Sasabihin ko naman talaga sayo naunahan lang ako"

"Sasabihin mo sakin kung saan huli na Sam aalis kana at iiwan muna ako at whats the fucking rule that you break" pagalit na saad ko kahit na walang tigil na umaagos ang luha ko

"Our family rules Mon, i did it coz i love you so much, i fucking love you to the point that I'm going to give everything to you, ayokong umalis at iwan ka kasi sobrang mahal na mahal kita, pero wala akong magagawa pa" she cried hard while saying those words

"Mahal moko pero iiwan moko, ansakit mo namang magmahal Sam" nasasaktang saad ko sa kanya

"Coz i don't have a choice, i told you to get an anullment as soon as possible para hindi to mangyari, but you didn't do it pinatagal mopa" may pangninisi na saad niya sakin

"Are you blaming me Sam, you know that its not that easy" i said to her and wipe my tears pero wala ding silbi patuloy paring umaagos ang masaganang luha ko

"Of course I'm not baby, I'm sorry ok" she said and slowly crawling para makalapit sakin this time hindi kona siya pinigilan pa she cupped my faced and wiped my tears using her thumbs

"I'm sorry baby, i don't want to leave you pero wala akong magagawa kailangan kung umalis para sa rules na nilabag ko sa pamilya namin alam ko namang panggulo lang ako sayo e pero nagmatigas ako, sobrang mahal kasi kita kahit na alam kung bawal dahil may asawa ka pero sumugal parin ako kaya ka nasasaktan ng ganito, I'm really sorry baby, i just fucking love you so much, so much that hurts" mahabang saad niya na mag lungkot sa mga matang nakatingin sakin

I gulp hard and caressed her cheeks, this face na Hindi ko makikita sa loob ng limang taon

" dont fucking say that Sam hindi ka panggulo naiintindihan moba, I treasure the day that you annoyed me Sam, I'll treasure every memories that we have and those flowers that you gave to me, I'll treasure everything that we have" i said and then hug her tightly, i know that she's the one who give me those flowers, sobrang sakit na iiwan niya ako i feel my heart shattered into pieces

I'm sobbing in her neck and hugging more tightly,once na umalis siya wala nang Sam na mangungulit sakin, wala nang Sam na bibigyan ako ng flowers, wala nang Sam na magpapangiti sakin, i can no longer hugged and kissed her, Hindi kona ulit siya makakatabi matulog, makakasama sa pagkain at makakasama sa mga adventure at places na gusto kung puntahan

How cruel it is, how cruel fate is bakit kailangan niya kaming pag hiwalayin ng matagal

"Shhh baby stop crying, I'm really sorry i love you so much kahit na malayo ako sayo ikaw lang ang mamahalin ko Mon, ikaw ang gusto kung makasama at ikaw ang gustong pakasalan at maging ina sa mga anak ko" madamdaming saad niya na mas lalong nag paiyak sakin pano kung makahanap siya ng mas higit sakin pano na ako

Pano kung sa iba siya magpakasal at kalimutan ako masyadong matagal ang limang taon nayun pano kung sumuko siya o ako pano na kami

Mas lalo akong naiyak sa isiping iyon mas hinigpitan kopa ang yakap sa kanya

"S-Sam d-dont leave me please pwede bang sumama sayo diko kayang mawala ka ng ganun katagal" pagmamakaawang sambit ko

"You can't Mon you're still married" she painfully said

Mas lalo pa akong naiyak how stupid i am na pinatagal kopa yung anullment ko, fucking stupid sana nakinig ako sa kanya na madaliin ang proseso hindi sana mangyayari to hindi sana siya aalis at hindi niya sana ako iiwan

"S-Sam please don't leave me" nagmamakaawang saad ko kahit na alam kung hindi na talaga pwede

"Can you wait for me Mon, please wait for me and i promise once i come back I'll marry you" she said and pulled our and kiss me deeply and passoinately

I kiss her back with the same intensity and savour the kiss while it last

I want to be selfish and wish that this is a dream na hindi totoong aalis siya pero alam kung niloloko kolang ang sarili ko

"I'll wait for you no matter what happened Sam, so please come back to me" i said and kissed her more deeply.

TBC..
Hello po my dear readers, gusto ko sanang mag paiyak kaso di ako marunong ehHAHAHA🙃😭

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