I walk up the drive ticket in hand into the house @ where have you been" I put my helmet on the island " doesn't matter I'm home now" I grab a bottle of water out the fridge and go upstairs to my room I pass the twins on the way " saint look at Me" enzo pops out of no where
I try go around him and he steps in my path so I shove him out the way till I'm in my room
" what the fuck saint" I wave him off as I put my helmet down
My body hurts I feel my eyes become droopy " enzo" I whisper as he was about to leave and I look at him " what the fuck saint" he rushes over
"DAD" enzo shouts so loud
I feel tears fall and stinging the cut on my cheek " what's up now I swear if your fighting with Leo again" dad comes into my eye view " saint" he stands breathe less
I get up and go to the my bathroom shutting and locking the door sitting against it " saint come on i-I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable"
I put my hands over my ears and cry into my knees " honey" I hear mums voice I get up and unlock the door and she hugs me straight away " it's okay your okay"
I cry into her shoulder
Soon enough we sit she's cleaning my face " what happen ey" I look at my helmet " I stopped to get gas and they just came out of no where they smashed my bike to pieces mum" I say and I see her face drop
I don't ask for a lot of my parents I'm grateful my bike was the most expensive thing I own now it's gone" who did it"
" the police said I had a ticket didnr though dad would have told me" i say and mum nods
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A weeks later we go the bike back I'm trying to repair it instead of hung a new one
I turn the gas and it's not working I fill the gas still not working " fuck" I shout
I leave the bike and go sit one the front stairs of the house and I see dad smoking I stand next to him and he give me it " any luck" I shake my head inhaling the cigarette " no thing totalled it would cost more to repair the whole thing then just by a new one"
He hums " am I still your favourite" I ask he nods and laughs " always my princess ey" he pulls me into his side and takes the cigarette " donr rel your mother" I nod and I go into the house
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I looks at the negotiable test I sigh again sitting on the bathroom floor
" saint of mum" she comes in and sits next to me " negative" I nod " just was it so bad and people don't even ask for it and get it I don't understand anymore" I say as I wipe my fallen tears
" I know baby" she hugs me and I lean into her " we have been trying so hard" I say she hums
" your body might need a break baby tell mason he will understand" I nod
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Later we are all in the kitchen I look out the window and mason kisses my kneck I move out of his grip " no mase I'm not in the mood" he looks at me confused
Everyone leaves me and mason in the kitchen " what do you not want a baby anymore" I look at him as if reality has hit me " you think I don't want a baby because I don't want to have sex with you IM TIRED MASON I'm fucking tired I'm sore and not in a good way" my tears fall
" oh please your the one who wanted one" I scoff at him " mason I can't have kids okay it's fucking impossible I've been through two rounds of ivf and I'm only 18 so please if I don't want to have sex I don't want to have sex" I shout at him he backs me into the side
" I never wanted a kid anyway it was so I could stay in this family and be apart of your dads business" I feel my tears fall heavier
" time for you to go mason" he looks me up and down once before one of my brothers take him out
" saint pl-" he tries to hug me shrug him off grabbing a bottle of alcohol and grabbing a set of car keys
I went to the cliff edge where we used to go for picnics and everyone tries calling I look at the whiskey
I decide not to drink it
I go home and everyone is in bed or doing there own thing I leave the bottle on the island and go upstairs knock on mums and dads door
" hello" I hear mum "nods me can I come in " yes" I open the door and dads on his laptop still fully dressed at the end of the bed and mums in bed sat up I get on the bed and sit next to mum
" where did you go hum" I shrug " I hate when he's in his mood he doesn't know when to stop" I see dad look at us out of the corner of my eye
" he's done that before" I realise what I've done " dad don't please" I say he scoff " your my daughter I support anything you do and your choices but not this" I nod
" I'm going to bed" I say and I leave them be I go to
