Beomgyu pov:
after watching videos of taehyun i want to close him more. he is so charming he is so cute how he act like tough but a sweet guy how he comfort other members or how he makes those little noises when he is scared or excited (sigh) but I didn't see him act like this even one. i want him to smile like that to me too when he looks like a squirrel and his eyes shinning.
i didn't even realise i hugging my phone until taehyun come and gave me judging look
"umm you took to long shower so i decide to watch something" I gave him omelette
"hmmm" he didn't say anything beside that but I already decided that I am not going to eat in silent today
"is food good for your taste" he just nod in answer
"are you busy today" now he look at me confused
"I mean if you're not busy we can watch some movie"
he sighs
"what are you trying to do"
"what do you mean I'm not trying to do anything" I say offended
"then why are you act like we are friend and known each other for so long"
"I'm just trying to friendly with you is it wrong?"
"yes it is"
"what do you mean" I look at him bewildered
"do you want me to eat so please"
i don't know what to do i don't have any appetite so I just grab my plate throw leftover in dustbin and wash my plate.
i want to ask why he thinks like that what is wrong to be my friend but I don't want him to skip his meal.
'he surely different from what people think he is or maybe he just like that to me only' i thought and mobile ringing cut my thoughts
( in call)
"hello hyuka"
"hi hyung do you miss me"
"yes i miss you so much. I don't have anything to do now. with you I play video games but now no one here who play with me"
"why not ask taehyun. I know he is not good as me but sometimes he also plays games"
"i don't think he likes me he surely say no. beside what happened at breakfast" i mumbled last part
"spill the tea beom. you think i didn't hear you" he raised his eyebrow I can tell even if don't see him
"nothing happened it just my fault. when he makes everything clear from the start"
"what clear? what are you talking?" he sound confused
"he didn't tell you guys?" i also ask confuse
"can you tell me from the start beomgyu hyung and don't try to change the topic or lie to me"
now I conflict if i tell him or not. i didn't know taehyun didn't tell them. if anything i just shut my mouth If i knew.
"huening let's just forget it okay" I say and massage my forehead
he suddenly started video calling me. i accept the video call
"why you switch to video call "
"so it's easy for me to tell when you're lying."
"huening it's nothing really"
" if it's really nothing they why you don't tell me? hyung just tell me i didn't tell anyone. it's stay a secret between you and me" now he look at me with hopeful eyes
"okay fine" i surrender but before I tell him I look at living room there is taehyun watching national geography
i take a deep breath and tell kai everything about rules and what happen today too
"how he do that why you don't tell this to anyone?"
"i know I'm not a loveable person so I accept that rules and it's not like I have Choice but I just want him as my friend"
"why you think like that did someone say anything to you or hurt you tell me "
i say silent
"hyung tell me please I'm your friend you can trust me. tell me everything from start how is your life in daegu and this marriage"
i sigh and tell him how is no one want to be my friend what they call me what they think about me and this marriage minho everything
"hyung you're really sweet, good looking, pretty, cute, kind and lovely person they are just jealous of you and about minho he take wrong decision and hurt you in process. but he is also right its hurt you more if he marry you.when he loves someone else" he smile at me now he look at me mischievously
"but you know manager didn't ask me to come if he. i gladly marry you after all i get a living pulshi. my teddy bear"
now I laughing only huening kai has a ability to make everyone happy
"okay my lil kai with big body how come you become this big i watch your old video you're so small "
"you watch our old video"
just like that I talk some more with hyuka and I also realize something my heart at ease now i guess it's come with a sense is someone with me now who understand me and protect me if something happen in future.
in evening i walk in the kitchen where is taehyun making something
"do you want any help"
"no"
than again silence
"taehyun if you don't want anything from me it's fine but can we at least be friends?"
"no, I don't want to make any new friend"
"then are we going to live like a stranger"
"it's just for 6 months and if you want a divorce you can ask me i sign those papers but please don't force me to become your friend"
"but why?"
"why you want to be my friend so badly?"
I didn't answer him
"listen beomgyu its for our own good if we stay away from each other cuz if someone can get attached in the process of friendship it's not good for him and I want to end this for overall in the end. no string attached. so that's the reason i don't want to be your friend cuz I want to close this chapter for his own good."
i just nod my head while looking at floor look like this is my fate in the end left alone. but at least i got 3 friend.
i left the kitchen to sleep in the room I know l'm playing with my health for skipping meals but I'm not in the mood beside there's no one who cares if I eat or not so just skip and sleep.
Taehyun pov:
in night
"he didn't come to eat, he didn't eat anything today in breakfast, he just left and threw everything in dustbin what he trying to do? make me feel guilty by doing this? That's not going to work. if he didn't want to eat I'm going to eat cuz I'm hungry."
