Beomgyu pov:
i can't believe what I am hearing. i know he finds me annoying but this. i didn't know he hate me that much. after everything he said i made mind. hope he can be happy now with my decision after all this is what he want from the start. so i said goodbye pack my things and left the house. sit in bus stop looking up the sky "i guess love is really not for me " i can't stop my tears from falling cuz I can't always smile so I let them falling if someone see me like that let them be i don't care.
"beomgyu finally i found you" i look beside me there stand yeonjun hyungwho looking disheveled
"hyung I'm not going with you"
"then are you going back daegu?" i just look down
" beomgyu you know you sign a contract with company even if you can work from home you still have to be here for meeting "
"then do you want me to go back there? you hear him hyung he hate me i know l am not what he want.I know I'm not beautiful or smart, mature, elegant and graceful like he wants that's why he feels embarrassed. he feel embarrass to stand beside me, let alone call me his husband. I always know no one wants me if no one wants to be friend how can someone like me. someone like me who is annoying ug--"
"beomgyu shut up. you're not what they think you are they are jealous of you. do you even look yourself in mirror? you are so beautiful, pretty and kind. and who say you don't have friends me, huening and soobin are we not your friends ?" he said and wipes my tears
" you are hyung but--"
"there is no but beomgyu. we are your friends that's it. people who don't like are jerk they don't deserve you and taehyun is biggest jerk and asshole he doesn't deserve your kindness or you. and please love yourself if you can't love yourself how you expect someone to love you" I hug yeonjun hyung and cry on his shoulder i feel comfort while he pat on my head and let me cry on his shoulder I don't how much time pass. when I start to calm down he pull back wipes my tears and stand up and offer me his hand which I accept and also stand up
"so let me take you on my flat where I live before me and soobin start dating and move together"
"you didn't sold your apartment "
"no i didn't. i like my apartment sometimes i still go and stay there when I need a space or i fought with soobin. now it's come in handy for you " we walk with hand in hand it's take us 20 minute to get there but it's take my mind at ease late night walk is best
apartment is so clean and cozy. it's not a big apartment but cozy just like my taste now I know why hyung didn't want to sold this apartment. yeonjun hyung going to take shower and i sat my bag and sit on sofa suddenly my phone start to ring " huening " i pick up the call
"I'm sorry hyung it's my fault " look like he's crying
" why are you saying sorry stupid it's not your fault so don't cry "
"so you didn't angry at me ?"
"no never. you're my friend who want a best for me so don't cry " we talk a little bit more in meantime yeonjun hyung come then I go and take a shower and look at mirror " maybe I should trim and dye my hair "
when I came out from shower. hyung setting a dinner on table " I order take out and also tell soobin that I stay with you "
i tell hyung I want to dye and trim my long hair " hmm you should and also take therapy it's best for your health cuz what you think about yourself is not good for your health you have to love yourself you have to think about yourself first. be selfish for yourself don't care about others just enjoy your life if you don't want anything just say no. if you don't like what others say just shut them up become confident, bad bitch and sassy beomgyu."
