Your hand in mine

Season 2 - 2

The right side of the bed is cold when she wakes up.

It's like she was never been there, Jennie thinks, gliding her hand down the cool, wrinkled sheet. Just another dream.

But there is a pleasant sting where Y/n sank her teeth in her neck last night, and she is deliciously sore between her legs. Her whole body is humming with relaxation. Complete opposite to how she is feeling inside.

She is gone. Again. Third night in a row.

This has been happening for a week now, and Jennie doesn't have the power to stop it. No, she knows - of course she knows all she has to do is decline and Y/n won't show up at her doorstep anymore. Of course she knows that.

She just doesn't want her to stop showing up at her door, no matter how empty she feels every time Y/n leaves.

Her robe effortlessly slides on her naked body as she thinks back to the first night with this new Y/n. It was -- different, she muses. Definitely different, but she didn't exactly expect for it to go any other way. She is been naive enough, however, to think that Y/n didn't let her touch her because they didn't exactly have time. Nari called right after Jennie plopped onto her back on the bed, panting Y/n's name through her second orgasm.

"Jennie, what's going on?" Her mother demanded, voice stern and loud. "You were supposed to be back an hour ago."

"I'm not twelve, mom," she snapped back, looking for a bra and almost dropping her phone when Y/n tossed it at her. Not that it was a vicious throw. Just -- Y/n's abs were on display when she did that, and it was easy to become slightly distracted.

Y/n's lips twitched upward at her outburst, just barely, and she almost missed her mother's reply.

"You're certainly acting like it." Clare waits a second before continuing. "Are you even planning on coming home today?"

Of course she was. Before Y/n stormed in, bringing a gust of winter wind with her in the middle of May, and Jennie felt snowflakes melt on her skin, under Y/n's impatient hands.

But -- her dad was home. Waiting for her. Small apartment, but a big home, heavenly scents coming from the kitchen and open windows letting the warmth of a spring evening in.

She was not surprised to find she preferred the cold to stay.

"I..." It was funny. How she still looked at Y/n for reassurance, as if those five months didn't exist at all.

Y/n's reply was to tug her shirt back on, and she swallowed, nodding to herself. "Yes," she breathes into the phone. "Of course I am. Be there in twenty."

"Good," her mom said curtly. "We'll be waiting for you, then." And she hung up, leaving Jennie alone with silently dressing Y/n.

Mere seconds ago, she had her back.

"I," she said, slowly sitting down on her bed and watching Y/n swiftly button her shirt up. It was so foreign - feeling self-conscious around Y/n. It was all so wrong. "It's my mom. I have to-"

"You don't need to explain yourself to me." Y/n only briefly glanced at her when she said it, and it didn't take Jennie long to decipher the real meaning. I don't need to hear it. This, right here, what happened between us - this is not something that requires an explanation, or any talking at all.

Y/n's face was blank again. No more clouded, intense gaze locked with hers. No more greedy lips burning her skin.

Cold. "Yeah," she managed to say without choking. "Okay." Next time, she thought wildly as she sat there, frozen, eyes roaming over Y/n's form. Next time, we'll talk, and I'll show her how much I missed her.