Chapter 38 | should we do it again?

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Y/n pov

I woke up in the middle of the night as someone was knocking at my door.. i opened it seeing rose hugging a pillow looking up to me

"Are you ok? What happened?" I leaned down to face her

"I.. had a nightmare" she pouted

"Where's mommy?"

"I don't wanna wake her up.. she's tired.. can i sleep here?" She puppy eyed making me sigh.. i mean.. how could you say no?

I tucked her in before also laying back down beside her "auntie y/n?" She called out again "yes?" I hummed already with close eyes

"Do you still love mommy?" She suddenly asked

"Uhm..why'd you ask?" I glared at her

"She's been here for a few days now.. i smelled her muffins when i came here earlier.. you know she loves you.. and i hope you're not making her wait for nothing" she mumbled actually hitting something inside me that just made me drop my chest

"Everything is fine between mommy and i" i reassure

"I don't like seeing mommy cry.. please don't make her cry... she's been through enough" she sighs putting her lips together

"Come here" i spread my arms pulling her in a hug letting her bury her face on my chest

We both stayed quiet and It was a different kind of quiet.. more like a soothing and comforting silence

"Rose..." I mumbled

"Hmm?"

"I...never stopped loving mommy" i mumbled kissing her forehead feeling her smile before she hugged me even tighter

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I stir awake with no one beside me..but as soon as i walked downstairs rose was in the living room watching something with koko while Scarlett is cooking

"Hey.. good morning" she smiled approaching me

"Morning"

She looked kind of unsure.. like she's Honestly avoiding eye contact "do you need help? What are you cooking? Let me" i tried grabbing the spatula

She didn't say anything and just stepped back swallowing thickly. I didn't want to ask.. I'm pretty sure i didn't do anything.. and it's probably a personal problem..

"Auntie??" Rose suddenly called out raising koko full of paint stain

I went to them seeing she's playing with some paint.. I'm glad she chose the washable ones "did you fed koko paint??" I chuckled wiping his face with wet wipes

"mommy is mad" she suddenly says whispering leaning closer to me

"to who? "

" You " she shrugged

" What did i do??? "

" I'm not sure but there was a girl earlier that came here.. then mommy talked to her then mommy suddenly became grumpy"

"a girl?? What does she looks like? " I shaked my head not expecting anyone to come and meet me today

" She's tall.. pretty.. blonde.. she looks young and yeah she's very pretty...she kinda looks like sleeping beauty like the one in books and not in the movie coz i don't know" she casually says helping me wipe koko

"Did you heard what the woman said?"

"Well... Mommy said i should not listen"

"5 packs of kitkats"

"She's looking for you" she nodded

I'm thinking it's Scarlet...is this another Scarlett jealous or something? I'm toxic so i like this

I went back to Scarlett actually hugging her from behind resting my chin on her shoulder" what are you doing? " She mumbles still trying her best to avoid me

" I like Scarlett " i huffed as s pushed me away

" I mean.. ok? I'm ok.. i mean.. we're not dating.. you can see..uhm.. whoever you want" she shook her head getting all dramatic

" The one with two Ts at the end of her name.. I don't know if you're familiar with her.. Scarlett uhmm.. Ingrid? Which i personally think is not moanable" i playfully says as she widened her eyes slapping my bicep chuckling

" Rose is right there! Shh! She's right the--rose??? WHERE DID SHE GO??" she panicked not seeing the kid

"i paid her with chocolates.. she's upstairs, don't worry"

She looked at me still hesitant before actually shaking it all off shrugging and just pulled me on a hug "do you really mean that?" She pouted looking up to me.. small bean

"that your name is not moanable? "

" I hate you " she chuckles

" I'm very thankful you're trying to make us work..i appreciate it... i can feel it...unlike wanda to vison" i sighs receiving her laugh

She just stared at me with a little smile on her lips still her hands wrapped around me" i love you.. genuinely..i promise you this time.. everything is real.. and I'm not hiding anything from you ever again" she stated sounding so genuine

"ooh..am i being asked out by Scarlett Johansson? Baby gay y/n would die" i sarcastically says

"I'm not... Not right now" she suddenly says still in the same expression

"I'll give you time..THIS time around.. get to know me.. the real me.. and if you think it's not gonna work.. it's fine..if you want me to stop and you think, us not being romantically related gives you peace.. it's ok.. just tell me when to stop.... anything that would make you feel in peace" she smiled widely

"I'm scared" i looked down shaking my head

"of what?"

" What if.. im too unstable? What if i.. yknow.. went totally crazy...how are you gonna be? I don't wanna be a burden"

" You're not.. and.. I'm gonna be ok as long as i know you're safe with me...y/n.. at some point, we're all unstable.. maybe yeah you're unstable but at least you have someone to be unstable with"

"what if you get tired of me? A-All the episodes.. all t-the attacks... I'm not saying these because I want you to leave.. I don't want you to.. I'm saying these to make you know what you're getting yourself into"

" I know " she sighs cupping my face caressing my cheeks in a very comforting way

"Yeah I'm sure there would be times that I'd feel tired.. but.. again, we all do...but you're also the one who gives me strength yknow... I've seen you had attacks you don't even remember.. and each time.. you listened to me..." She reassured

" I don't know scar.."

" Let's not talk about this now ok? We're gonna go with the flow and gonna figure things out while we do that.. one step at a time.. together" she smiled earning my nod actually giving me hope..maybe I'm being too hard sometimes




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