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by its_petrichor

by its_petrichor

lately
I can't eat

I didn't notice how four meals turned into three
and then three into two
didn't notice how I'd given up breakfast
don't notice it's time to eat something until it's already 3 pm

I never mean for this to happen
I am trying
it is different this time
it is no longer out of hatred
not even because of how I look

because I happen to like how I look now
as scary as it is to say it out loud
and I achieved it through good conscience

but something is different now
I find in me a very limited capacity to bring myself to eat
limited amount of time I am willing to spend on eating

but the problem is time
I've just realised
it's always time and how there's never enough of it