Don't Let Me Drown (Oli Sykes Fan Fic) COMPLETE

PRESSURE

Oli headed back to the group while Skrillex disappeared, and I felt all kinds of emotions. I was on cloud nine having just met Skrillex, I was embarrassed that I'd been caught looking at them and I was starting to get confusing feelings about Oli. I just had to bury them because tonight was not about me; it was about Jordan and Emma! Oli climbed over me and squeezed in between Dani and myself, leaving the spot on the outside of the lounge free. He could have sat out there but clearly wanted to get amongst the action rather than be an outsider. He ended sitting so close to me, practically on me. So much so that if leant back, I would basically be against him. I wondered if he'd done that on purpose? I noticed Skrillex back at the bar, eventually turning around with a huge tray and heading toward us. I watched his every move. "So, I just wanted to say Happy Anniversary to you guys." he said to the group as he placed the tray down on the table in the centre of the lounge. There was a black, heart-shaped cake with chocolate hearts and the initials 'J & E' on some kind of plaque, and my mouth dropped open as he lit sparklers creating little kind of fireworks above the sweet confection. Tom was snapping photos already. "And guys, it's got a lot of alcohol in it, so it'll get you drunk." Skrillex added, now sitting down beside me on the lounge where Oli should have sat. Here I was, again; nestled between Oli and Skrillex, but I couldn't be happier. Tom got up and took photos of us all raising our glasses in the air, and of Emma and Jordan cutting their cake. They looked so in love and God it reminded me just how nice it was to have what they had, even though I always told myself I don't want to be in a relationship.

The cake was, well, alcoholic as hell, so I only had a couple of bites, but it was a pretty amazing idea. I sat back and looked over at Oli, curious since he didn't seem anywhere near as surprised by the entire thing as everyone else was. There was also the fact that the cake was black... "Did you organise that?" I asked, motioning with my head toward the cake.
"Maybe." he said with a smile. It was obvious that it was. I grinned and laughed at him.
"You're full of surprises, aren't you?" I questioned. He just laughed. I was really impressed with his thoughtfulness to be honest because it showed how much effort he put in for his friends; the people he cared about. I sat back and unavoidably put my head on his shoulder for a moment, just watching everyone eating, talking, smiling... the energy was so good. Skrillex had to take off, but said it was great to meet everyone and that he'd see us after his set. I couldn't wait to see him do his thing right in front of me!

Another round of shots appeared at the table as the lights went down, but these ones were blue and glowing. They were kind of sour and absolutely amazing! We chatted and drank until 10pm when the support DJ stepped onto the mezzanine and started playing. We watched him for a while but mostly sat around and chatted about literally everything, laughing about memories and drinking at a steady pace. By 11pm the place was packed, the music had gotten a lot louder and the rounds of shots had been appearing steadily. I was about six drinks in when I started to feel a bit tipsy and I knew I had better slow down since I'm an affectionate drunk. I didn't want to let myself get too 'go with the flow' around Oli or god knows what would happen.

I asked the girls to dance with me; to dance off some of the alcohol and Dani and Nat were up for it, probably just as tipsy as I was. Emma wanted to stay behind with Jordan so the three of us headed down onto the main dance floor and started dancing together in a little cluster. There wasn't a lot of room to move, but we were laughing and having a great time jumping around to the second DJ who was now on stage. I could see Tom up in the VIP with the others, snapping photos and watching on, and the others were sitting up there watching us through the glass barrier. "Your men are watching." I yelled to the girls, which made them both look up and wave up to them. I had to laugh. Nat yelled something in my ear, but I couldn't hear her over the music so I just shrugged and shook my head. She came in closer and yelled at me again, louder this time so I could hear. "Oli can't stop looking at you." she said, smiling feverishly. I looked up at the VIP and he was indeed staring. I won't lie, I liked the attention, but I didn't want things to get weird, so I just went back to dancing with the girls and ignoring anything that was happening outside of my little dancefloor bubble.

At 11:45pm, the DJ left his platform and that was our cue to head back up to the VIP. We were all hot but loving every minute of the night. As we got back to the lounge, Emma immediately jumped up and dragged us off to the ladies room. As we congregated around the sinks, reapplying lipstick and fixing our hair Dani hugged me from behind. "Oh my god" she said now coming beside me at the sink. "I know you don't want to hear it, but I have never seen Oli like this!" she quipped. "He's literally not even looked at anyone else." she added.
"Oh my god I know!" Nat agreed. "He cannot take his eyes off you!" she said. I just awkwardly laughed. I wasn't sure how to deal with it. The truth was that I felt attracted to him in a way that I hadn't before. It had always been platonic, but something was in the air, and I have to say, I didn't know how, but he was slowly getting through the gigantic wall I'd built up after John.

I felt uneasy about the way I felt though and I wasn't sure what to say... even if I was starting to feel something, I didn't want to to be awkward. I had to keep it to myself. "He's actually so speechless over you." Emma said, now joining in. "When you guys were down there dancing, the boys were talking about you and Oli was getting all embarrassed and blushing like mad." she added. "I think Macy was right. I think he has a massive crush on you." she finished. I might have been tipsy, but I knew if I even so much as said I thought he looked good, that it would turn into this massive thing, so I just went with the usual spiel. "We're just friends. Maybe he just thinks I look good." I replied with a laugh. "Besides, I'm not ready to be in another relationship." I said, almost reminding myself at the same time. "But maybe you'll change your mind?" Emma asked. I felt so pressured. I guess he was their friend and they thought he liked me so wanted to help him, but I couldn't do the relationship thing again so soon. I just couldn't. I made eye contact with all of them through the mirror. "He is lovely and I really do adore him as a person, but I don't want to be in a relationship with anyone." I said. The truth was, my heart was starting to like him, but my heart had always gotten me into trouble and led to me getting hurt, so I refused to listen to it. It was still trying to heal from all of the old wounds, plus the fresh betrayal. "Well I would suggest hooking up with him, but we love you too much for that." Dani said. "We don't want it to get awkward between you and then you leave us!" she added jokingly. I forced a laugh. "Look ladies, let's just forget about the boys for a while and get some cocktails." I said, deliberately changing the topic. They liked the idea of that and we headed back into the lounge. God, I needed several drinks after the bombardment of Oli's wing-women.

"Girls, he's about to start." Oli said, motioning for us to go over to the barrier as soon as we exited the bathroom. Sure enough, there was a countdown on his big screen that had less than a minute left on it. I purposely didn't stand next to Oli, but Jordan went off to grab a drink, so once again I was next to him. I wasn't really trying to avoid him since nothing that had happened was his fault, he'd probably be mortified if he knew how much pressure I felt from the girls! He nudged me as the timer hit 10 seconds to go and I felt myself get goose bumps. Talk about suspense and build up! God this was amazing.

5, 4, 3, 2, 1... Skrillex's stage screamed to life with the opening bar of his song 'Bangarang'. The entire club erupted in a massive cheer and I joined them, clapping along and yelling in excitement. The stage was crazy with smoke and lasers as the song built, and a huge confetti bomb going off at the first bass drop. It was A-MA-ZING! I was dancing and jumping around like an absolutely crazy person, and when I looked at Oli, he was too; in fact all of us were at least banging our heads to the beat like crazy people. Skrillex has only just hit the stage and it was already incredible. I could only imagine how I'd feel by the end of it!