"Please daddy i really want it" i cried as daddy puts the oreos back on the shelf. Ugh daddy is so mean i only have 5 packs of candy in the cart.
"No darling boy, you have more than enough candy at home" Ares says looking down at me. Why does he hav...
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I woke up in a pair of strong arms, the feeling was new but it felt like home. The comforting way that Ares held me made me feel truly happy
Cuddling into him i nuzzle myself into his chest smelling his cologne. It was almost like a sandalwood and light hint of lemon scent
(AN: Dont judge me i love that smell, its hot😭)
I feel him stroking my back as i look up to him and smile, he smiles back at me. Im astonished that he gives me the most genuine smile ever
I think i just died. Is this what death is like?
"Hey darling" he coos with a deep morning voice. Literally kill me now
"Hey Ares" i smiled brightly, he pokes my check making me smack his hand away
"I can't believe you are real, you are the sweetest person in this world" he laughs as he kisses my forehead
OMG HE KISSED MY FOREHEAD
I KNOW IM SO HAPPY- WAIT.. I must be dreaming
I pinch myself and yelp from the pain before he speaks
"Darling you aren't dreaming don't pinch yourself" I blush at his words and look around observing my surroundings.
I look at the TV seeing that it says heartstopper season 2 was released while we were sleeping
"OMG we have to watch season 2 now!" I bounced on the couch getting out of his arms
"Of course Tesoro, go freshen up and we will watch it" he says making my smile grow bigger
He leads me to the guest bathroom upstairs and i start getting ready. I use the toilet and brush my teeth before hoing downstairs. I wait for him on the couch still squealing of excitement
A few minutes later he comes down in grey sweatpants and a black shirt. His appearance is known to the room the second he walks in
Holy shit he looks fine as fuck
He sits on the couch and hits play, just like that i no longer care about how he looks, im now focused on watching season 2
I only realize we haven't eaten breakfast by episode five when my stomach starts growing. Ares takes that as a cue to get up and walk to the kitchen
"Ill grab you something to eat" he yells over his shoulder as i check the time on my phone.
Holy shit its already 2 pm
Glancing back at the TV i paused it not wanting Ares to miss anything. Im nice like that
He gets back a few minutes later with a plate, taking it i look and there is a cut up apple and pasta. The pasta was leftover from our picnic last night
Thinking of last night i smile, i loved that picnic i just wish i didn't ruin everything by fainting
Looking back at the food i feel repulsed by it and no longer want to eat
"Is everything okay? Do you want me to make you something else baby?" He asks noticing me stare at the plate with hatred
Baby? Not that im complaining though
"No its fine, ill eat in a little while, im still too tired" i lied through my teeth
Ive struggled with anorexia for my whole life and i was finally starting to recover, i always had bad eating tendencies but when Harold came along it got worse
Harrold would always tell me how fat i looked, even when i was at my worst weighing only 80 pounds while being 5'5. I remember it vividly as he would beat me to the verge of death and leave me to take care of myself.
I have alot of ptsd around food because of the stuff he did to me. When i was young i found that food was the only thing i could control after my mama died. When i was with him at first he started making comments about my weight and then it turned to abuse about everything i did wrong
One time i asked him for food since he had a lock on the fridge. After that i never asked again, he tied me to the bed and raped me all night even after i passed out from the hunger and severity of what he was doing
Looking back i wish i could have helped myself but now im stuck with all this trauma. My eating was getting better again but every time i do something wrong i can't eat. Its almost programmed in my brain that consequences are equivalent to starvation
"You okay darling? You zoned out and ive been trying to get your attention for the last 5 minutes" Ares says clearly worried making me feel even worse
"Ya im okay just deep in thought about the show" i said lying again. He clearly didn't believe me but as he went to speak he stopped and just nodded
We continued watching heartstopper for the next 1½ when it finished. I was sobbing at the end and Ares looked sad when the self harm scene came.
Once i finished crying Ares decided to show me around, we ended up in his library that was completely filled with books
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"You read?! Thats amazing. I love reading so much!" I bounced around on my feet excitedly making him laugh and nod his head
"Its 4 pm baby, you need to eat something. I cant have my baby hungry can i?" He cooed at me convincingly and i sighed
We went to the kitchen and he warmed up the pasta again. I stared at the pasta before taking a bite
It was honestly so good and i really like it. Sighing to myself i ate more and i ended up finishing half the pasta and the apple
"Good job hunny, im so proud of you" Ares said genuinely and opened his arms for a hug which i greatfully accepted
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