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11. why would he do that to me.

Harry's pov

it's been 2 months since my wife came back from the trip and louis found out about my bruises. every time i get hit i go to him and he helps. i think i truly formed a bond with him that i don't think i'll ever have with anyone ever again.

obviously disregarding that i am cheating on my wife. i tend to not think about it that much because it makes me spiral. yes it's a horrible thing to do but i feel imprisoned with her. the moments i spend with her all i'm thinking about is him. what he's doing where he is if he's thinking about me too.

all of that. i'm always thinking about him i got the promotion which allowed me to come home earlier. which then means that i can go to louis's house spend time with him each day and then go to my house when the time comes. i obviously didn't tell mary i got a promotion cus that would mean she'd expect me home earlier

then i won't have time to be with louis so i kept quiet about my promotion. i park my car a few blocks ahead so my car is out of sight then i walk into louis's house

i knock on the door smiling awaiting my 'welcome home kiss' and just dying to hold him. "hi honey welcome home." he says as he opens the door walking inside no kiss. no hug. nothing.

"whats wrong what did i do?" i ask and he shakes his head "nothing why do you think something's wrong?" he says and i frown "no welcome kiss or even a hug." i state and he nods

"sorry." he pecks my lips and i frown softly. "are you upset about something? did i do something?" i ask and he shakes his head

"harry just leave me alone." he walks upstairs and zayn who's been there the whole time looks at me his mouth stuffed with food "he's mad at you." zayn says

"what why what did i do?" i ask him and he shrugs "i just know he's mad by the way he's being with you right now give him space try again tomorrow" zayn says zayn is like a guide to louis. he knows everything there is to know about him and honestly? it makes things way easier

"alright. kiss him for me. not on the lips." i say walking out and then going to my car it's not time to go to my house yet so i just stay there for a while thinking what i could've done to upset him.

i don't know tho nothing is making sense to me i really haven't done anything wrong i know zayn said to leave him alone but i can't help it my boy is upset with me and i don't know why.

me
hey love not too sure why you're upset but whatever it is i'm sorry please text me when you can.
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me
i love you.
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i decide to pull out of the hiding spot and make my way home i'm quiet for the rest of the night still confused on what i did. i'll try again tomorrow.

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i go over to louis's house as usual and he opens the door looking up at me and i frown "please tell me what i did?"

"i can't keep seeing you anymore." he doesn't even let me in he just blurs it out. "what?" i say confused not fully processing this.

"i can't keep seeing you haz. i'm sorry i just can't keep doing this to myself my dignity and your wife. as much of a cunt she is it's never okay to cheat and the fact that i am who you're cheating on her with just makes me sick. i will always be here for you as a friend. but i can't keep doing this to her and myself." he says and i feel my whole world pause. i am frozen still.

this happy routine i created for myself is now destroyed. completely ruined. "louis you know i can't leave her. i-" i start and he nods "i know. i know you can't but i can't be the person on the side. she gets the title she gets to hold your hand out on the street she gets to kiss you no matter who's watching she gets to have children with you start a family. what do i get? secret texts behind her back secret kisses an hour or two a day. she gets it all and i get just the left overs. i never thought i'd be this kind of person. it used to be just sex. but to me this is way more than sex now and as much as it pains me to not be around you anymore i have to do it. for my own well being." he finishes tears streaming down his face as he looks up at me

"i love you." is all i managed to choke out through my own tears "we can't keep doing this. i'm sorry." he says as he closes the door. right in my face. i've never really experienced heartbreak this heavy. wow this hurts.