An Insight Into The Mind of a Trans Man

Poems from 2022

Anywhere
By Regulus Caspian Garven

I wish I was anywhere but here

In this house,
Where doubts are worn like blouses because they are fed to me like honey from a bee

Hidden behind sweet undertones my parents use to manipulate me
Anywhere Is better than this house

Where I don't belong
That I feel more like Harry Potter
Or Cinderella just waiting to leave and be free

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Family
By Regulus Caspian Garven

Family should care
But sometimes the people under the family label are not your family

Sometimes family are people behind a screen

Sometimes labels are put on the wrong people and you just have to wait for your family to find you

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Glass Man
By Regulus Caspian Garven

I AM made Of Glass
A Man
Made of Glass
I was born shattered but that does not
Mean I am fragile

Glass may be fragile and I may be a
glass man

BUT

Shattered glass can make you bleed

AND

I was born shattered
I can make you bleed if you pick up my pieces you might just get pricked.

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Masks
By Regulus Caspian Garven

Everyone wears a mask of some kind
But I wear multiple
I mold a mask for every single person I meet

Because I am terrified that if they know how broken I truly am, they will abandon me
And I will be alone

So I hide behind these masks so I am never alone
Yet recently my masks have been falling apart
And floating away

I am still afraid to be left alone but
I have met people who I believe won't leave me despite my broken pieces.

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Imperfect
By Regulus Caspian Garven

Everyone else wants someone perfect to love

But I want someone perfectly imperfect
I want a person that is perfectly imperfect
Imperfection is perfection in my hazel eyes

Please universe,
Send me someone perfectly imperfect to give my heart to

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Sensitive
By Regulus Caspian Garven

I am sensitive
But NOT because I am humorless
But because your joke was cruel

I am sensitive because I HAVE the NEED to protect myself from your cruel jokes

I am NOT acting like a victim like you say
I am just reacting to your cruelty
I am sensitive because you are cruel