Always My Fault
By ReggieWhen something went wrong it was always my fault
So I was taught that everything is always my faultBut why is it always my fault even when I wasn't the one who did it
But I'll apologize anyways
Because that's just who I amI'll apologize even though I know I had nothing to do with it because it's what I was taught
I was taught that everything is
Always
My
Fault____________________
No One Wants
By ReggieWhen I see my image in anything, mirrors, the water, pictures
I can't stand seeing my image
Because all I see is my size and all I can think is,
"No one wants to see that."No one wants to see my body
No one wants to see how big I am
No one wants to see how ugly I amNo one wants to see how truly hideous I am
Not even I want to see it.
___________________
Sunshine
By ReggieI used to be able to bring sunshine into people's lives
But now I feel more like I bring rainBecause I can hardly bring myself up and out of a depressive episode
It seems like I can't escape this endless rainWhen will my sunshine come back?
I want to bring sunshine again
I want to see the sun again
Not this endless rainWhen will I be the sunshine again and not the rain?
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Empty Promises
By ReggieYou were supposed to be better
You promised me you were betterYou said you accepted who I am
But you're not really trying to use the correct pronouns and nameYou promised me I could be myself
But I still have to hideYou promised so much but they were all just empty promises
Weren't they?____________________
Never Good Enough
By ReggieWhy am I never ever good enough for people?
Before you say I am
I can tell you all the times in my life where I have never been good enoughI wasn't good enough for my adoptive family
I wasn't good enough for anyone I became friends with growing up
And I'm not good enough for my biological mother and her new family
I'm never good enoughI definitely don't feel good enough for my boyfriends
Or good enough for the friends I've made online
Why can't I just be good enough?At this point I understand that I just won't ever be good enough for people
Like I've been taught all my life___________________
Trying
By ReggieIf you have to say you're trying, are you really trying?
I think we have two different definitions of trying
It shouldn't be hard to use he, him, his
Or masculine terms
It really isn't that hardIt really isn't trying when you have to say you're trying
If you really were trying, you would be correcting yourself more often and be using
My
NameSo No Mother
You really aren't trying___________________
Dysphoria
By Reggie
KAMU SEDANG MEMBACA
An Insight Into The Mind of a Trans Man
PuisiJust posting my poetry on here. Gonna do this to practice, practice, practice and see if people would actually enjoy my writing. Thank you for reading.