I know, how you felt when you saw the exact person you wanted for so long. I had felt the same butterflies as you when I realised that whatever and whoever I wanted was right in front of me. Don't tell me that you didn't ask so many questions about your insecurities to yourself in your mind while adoring him with a smile on your face........i had felt the same. At that exact moment, you were so close to him, you realised that you were never going to be the same person as now anymore. You knew that you were not feeling the "already existing" you but you were all the way so happy that you were ready to take a change, the biggest change.........the change that you thought was never meant for you. Don't say that you have felt the urge to kiss maybe someone you met before him???? Of course not. But when it was him, all you wanted was to press your lips against his lips and kiss him like no one was watching....... don't worry I had felt the same. You were the girl who has never ever held the hand of a guy or even talked to boys like that but when he held your hand, you were shaking and having the best feel till now. All you were praying for was to never leave that hand even if you didn't know how long it was gonna be like this.......yes honey I had felt the same. When he was sitting right next to you and telling you something, but all you were doing was the promise to yourself to never leave him even if you wouldn't stay like this with him for so long..........I had done the promise to myself too. From that moment, you made that promise your whole agenda of life because you knew that even if you wanted, you couldn't go back and all you had to do now, was this promise. You never wanted that day to end, you wanted that day to be so long that it would never get over even when you were aware that this couldn't happen and especially when it was the February month. The whole day realising that you were in love now but at the end you realised one more thing that you were changing yourself not for your own but for someone who was everything for you now. And then you slept peacefully with a wish to have dreams about the person.
But what if your dreams turned into nightmares, would it be about something else or still about the same person ????? You never know honey so goodnight, ily :)
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I know, it's not easy to let it go....
Non-FictionThis story is about accepting the fact that it takes so much time to let things go, to move on from that...........yes the chest hurts when you try your hard and still find yourself standing there, where you made a decision that turned you into this...
