𝗧𝗵𝗶𝗿𝗱 𝗖𝗼𝗳𝗳𝗲𝗲 𝗼𝗳 𝗧𝗵𝗲 𝗗𝗮𝘆 // Jihan

twenty-four

He pushed his lips onto the older's. He kissed his crush after a long time. It was a moment of disbelief. Had this truly happened? He lost himself in the kiss, forgetting the entire plan. All that mattered in that moment was the sensation of their lips pressed together.

To his surprise, Jeonghan initiated a deeper kiss by gently sliding his tongue into Joshua's mouth. It caught Joshua off guard, but he quickly reciprocated.

The kiss was intense, just like the one in the movie they had watched days ago. Two minutes felt like an eternity as they were lost in each other's embrace. When Joshua finally pulled back, their lips were flushed with color.

Joshua gazed into Jeonghan's eyes, feeling that this was the moment he had been waiting for. The most awaited moment had arrived.

"Yoon Jeonghan, I have feelings for you. Every time I see you, you brighten my soul. I can't put into words how many butterflies you give me when we're together. From the moment I met you, I knew you were the one I had been searching for. Your smile is the sweetest, your face, an angel's. I wish I could kiss every inch of it at least ten times. Your personality is the best. I love the way you act, laugh, even the way you breathe. Are you even human? No, you're not. You're a total angel." Joshua confessed, his voice filled with tenderness.

Jeonghan was stunned. All this time, he had believed Joshua was straight, that he only hung out with him because he had no other friends. This couldn't be real. It had to be a dream. But as Joshua posed the question, his heart raced.

"Do you want to be my boyfriend?" Joshua asked.

At that very moment, Seungkwan arrived at the hill, but it was too late. Joshua had already posed the question. If only Seungkwan had arrived sooner, maybe he could have prevented this.

Jeonghan was shocked, his world turned upside down. He had never imagined that Joshua had feelings for him. He thought Joshua was straight. He had assumed that Joshua spent time with him out of pity, thinking he had no other friends.

This couldn't be real. It had to be a dream, and Jeonghan wanted to wake up from it. He couldn't say yes, but if he said no, it would mean the end of their friendship.

Joshua waited anxiously for a response, his heart pounding. He had bared his soul, and now he awaited Jeonghan's answer.

And then, it came.

"I'm sorry, Joshua. No." Jeonghan said.

Everything seemed to shatter for Joshua in that moment. His heart broke into pieces. Seungcheol had been right all along. But how had Seungcheol known all this? Could it really be true?

No, Joshua couldn't accept it. He had to fight. "No?" he stuttered, his voice quivering. "Why?" he pressed, desperate for an explanation. They had just shared a passionate kiss moments ago. How could this be happening?

"I did. I don't know why. I was confused. I haven't kissed anyone in years. My family life is a nightmare. Both my parents are the worst. I wanted to remember what it felt like to kiss someone. Joshua, I'm sorry. Please forgive me. You're the only true friend I've ever had in my life. Every moment with you brought me happiness. Please forgive me."Jeonghan explained, tears welling up in his eyes.

"B-but... Why did you want to stay at my place before? Why did you hang out with me? You seemed happy with me..." Joshua pressed, needing to understand. He couldn't believe Jeonghan had used him like this.

"I stayed because..." Jeonghan began, his voice breaking as he cried. "I have big problems at home. My brother gets abused by my parents every day. I was too scared to go home during the first week. So, I stayed at your place. Things got worse, and my mom told my brother that when I came home, she would kill me. She's capable of it. I was just too scared. I tried to have fun with you, to forget about her. Please forgive me. I never meant to use you."

Joshua was conflicted, his emotions running wild. He was not just heartbroken, he was also angry. Why had Jeonghan used him like this when he seemed like such a sweet person?

He couldn't understand why all of this had happened. He believed his life would have been better if he had never met Jeonghan.

"You used me, damn it! Go home! Never come to my place again! I don't care if some of your clothes are still at my place. Never return! Never speak to me again!" Joshua spat, his anger consuming him as he walked away from Jeonghan, who stood there, tears streaming down his face.

Seungkwan, who had arrived too late to prevent any of this, watched in shock as Joshua used harsh words toward his brother. What he didn't know was that Jeonghan was one of the most sensitive people in the world.

Joshua walked away, a whirlwind of emotions raging inside him. He was mad, hurt, and betrayed. Why had Jeonghan used him when he thought they had a genuine friendship? He didn't understand, and he wanted nothing more to do with Jeonghan.

But as he walked away, he heard Jeonghan's desperate last words.

"Joshua, don't leave me! I need you!" Jeonghan shouted, his voice filled with despair.

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