𝗧𝗵𝗶𝗿𝗱 𝗖𝗼𝗳𝗳𝗲𝗲 𝗼𝗳 𝗧𝗵𝗲 𝗗𝗮𝘆 // Jihan

thirty-four

Joshua was muted. Is this how they are meeting after a big drama?

Jeonghan was stunned and muted too. He looked into the other boy's eyes. His eyes. He finally met him.

"Uh yeah. Guys, let's go. I think I left something at the restaurant!" Jun said, turning his back.

"Yeah, me too." Minghao continued.

"I will stay here." Seungcheol seemed to be mad. But why? Is he mad because Jeonghan will maybe "manipulate" his friend again?

"We need to talk." Jeonghan looked down. He was very embarrassed now. Also super shy. This is the first time they met after he started to have a crush on him.

"Say it here. No way I am talking with you in private after all of this."

"I can't. Give me at least one chance to speak up."

"Come on, Joshua! Take it. Listen to him at least one time!" Seungkwan side-eyed him.

"No. I already forgot about him. I don't want to hear fake words. Leave me alone."

"Just listen-"

But then Joshua ran away, with Seungcheol trying to comfort him.

"What's the matter with him?" Jeonghan questioned himself.

"Oh, did you forget you rejected him? What do you expect now? It's your fault." Hansol eye-rolled.

"I want to talk to him. I want to confess to him.
I have my words in my mind right now. Why won't he listen just one minute? Seungkwan, you can go with Hansol. I will go home since I lost my excitement."

Jeonghan just walked away. He really did lose his excitement. Did Joshua just ruin his whole day? But he crushed over him hours ago!

What a mood change.

***

"I'm glad you did this, Josh. Don't ever trust him again. You know what he's doing..." Seungcheol patted Joshua's back.

"You're right. Let's forget about him. I'm not interested in him anymore."

But he lied.

He did lie. But why is he acting like this? Even after all this drama, he still loves Jeonghan. Isn't it weird?

Is someone choosing for him who to love?

***

"Jeonghan! When will you open the door? You've locked yourself there for hours already!" Seungkwan kept knocking on the door.

Since Jeonghan came home, no one ever heard something from him.

Who got him this mad? Or sad. I mean, yes, he met Joshua, it's something new and unexpected, but why is he sad?

Is it because Joshua didn't want to listen to him at least once? It's something normal though.

Everybody would do the same if they were Joshua.

"Come on! I'm calling Joshua if you won't come out of your room."

It's not like he cared. It would be awesome though! He would be able to hear his crush's voice once again. His calming voice... especially when it's nighttime.

"Fine then...you will be the one regretting it~"

Seungkwan got back into his room and actually did nothing. He just joked. As always.

Meanwhile, Jeonghan was stalking the same man once again. It was different now.

"Looks like he's happy with his new friends. Much happier than he was with me." he pouted.

"Why am I still thinking I have any chances with this man? He will marry Jun or Seungcheol for sure. Or even someone better."

Should he give up? He didn't even try to explain. Should he confess first? Or apologize and tell the truth... Or none. He could just give up. These three months were very great and fun! He has to meet the rain now.

Or is it otherwise? After rain, there's always a rainbow! Is this the rain? Nah, the rainbow was before the rain here. Even the weather is complicated now!

"I give up. Life is useless." he said, shutting down his phone and closing his eyes.

***