Bill Kaulitz: Born to Die

Beichte

It's nearly the end of the year with just one month left and Bill is starting to grow out his hair. I'm surprised it's not dead yet. I have to be honest my feelings for him kinda came back but I'm not exactly sure yet.

It's been about 5 months since the previous breakup but I wouldn't care if I liked Bill straight after because he can't say shit. Bill always gets haircuts that look like animals for some reason, first, it was the pixie cut and then the hedgehog one. What is next, a lion or some shit?

I can tell the group is getting more confident with their styles which kinda makes me proud of them. Schrei did really well and we hear it on the radio at least once every two days.

We have been learning a little more English but we are still really bad at it and Tom can't say clothes properly like tf is a closes? Also, Gustav learnt this new word called 'cunt' but we have no idea what it means. The girl on tv sounded offended by that word but whatever.

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So far the band has been on a few interviews and there have been a few girls fangirling over them but mainly Tom and Bill. I swear I've been hearing some wild shit coming from Tom's room but that can wait.

I can tell the kids at school have been treating them differently. So far we've just been ignoring them but sometimes they even need to bring bodyguards with them.

I'm starting to feel differently when I'm around Bill. It's like the feeling I got when I liked him but it's different. The feeling is stronger but it's weaker. I guess I was kinda in denial, I knew it wasn't good for me but it's a feeling none can compare.

The more I saw him the more I admired him. His smile, his voice, and his sweet personality is like vanilla. Oh, I think I love him.

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After the realization, I noticed I wanted to be with him every second every day. Although I wanted to spend more time with him I didn't want to be with him for too long in case I stuffed anything up.

I also noticed that Bill has been acting differently around me too but I don't wanna get too ahead of myself. He's really not good for me but I want him. He's like diet mountain dew, it might sound good but it's not which makes it so addicting. God, I'm addicted to him.

I attended all of their concerts sitting front row center, right in front of him. They are performing one today actually. It's not a big concert but it's good enough.

I have my fit planned for it, it's not much but at least it's presentable, unlike Tom at their graduation. I got a crimson red laced shirt with off-the-shoulder sleeves whilst the top shapes my body well. Along with flared bell-bottom jeans and a few pieces of jewelry including a few of Bill's rings. I put on a white headband and I was ready to go.

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At the concert, they performed Durch den monsun, schrei, ich bin nich' ich, rette mich and they are currently performing Beichte. I screamed my heart out until I turned blue. One of the main things I admired about Bill was his voice.

My favorite part is when he sings "Sha la la la la" but it didn't play like tf Bill? Instead, he looked at me smiling. Ok, I forgive him. He held my hand pulling me on stage. It's hard to explain, it was so gentle yet so rough. The music started softening down and I could see a slight smirk on Georg's face.

"Y/n. You are the most gorgeous, sweetest, prettiest girl I've ever seen." I could tell he couldn't help but smile, I couldn't either. I swear this is all a dream, it's too good for it not to be. I couldn't help but blush as his words drowned me in his voice.

"You've been there with me during the highs and lows. Actually, there were no lows with you." I heard his voice calm down along with the crowd. I couldn't help but chuckle flattered, no one could say any of these words about me.

"We've been friends for basically our whole lives but I don't want that. I want more than that." His words were so poetic they sounded like a song. "You're my motivation, you're my reason to keep going, you're my everything." I felt like melting, I felt as though I was going to fall to my knees.

"I want to be with you forever and I hope you do too." The only words running through my mind were yes, yes, YES. The only words going through my heart were the words escaping from his into mine as if it was feeding on his. I could feel tears escape from my eyes feeling free and happier than ever.

"Y/n will you be mine, will you make it work, will you be my everything? Will you be my girlfriend?" I felt my tears turn into hearts forcing me to nod. My mouth opened when I heard the word 'mine'. "Yes, YES" I screamed at the top of my lungs.

I saw the love, excitement and happiness in his eyes. I wrapped my arms around his neck standing on my tippy toes and giving him a gentle kiss. He wrapped his arms around my waist kissing me back. I felt his smile through the kiss as the crowd went wild.

I didn't want to let go, it was the best feeling I've felt in a long time. All of a sudden talking Tom had to break it up cause his jealous ass knows he can't stick to one girl. Out of all the ways he could have broken it up he chose to push us away and say some weird shit but the fans liked it so I guess I'll spare him.

I walked back down from the stage still holding Bill's hand until I had to let go unfortunately for him to finish the show. He finished singing beichte and then he started singing Wenn nichts mehr geht and Lass uns hier raus.

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After the concert we went backstage with our VIP passes. There were a few other people there but not many. As soon as I saw Bill I ran up to him and he ran up to me hugging me back. I could feel myself melt into his arms as if I was part of him.

"You were so good," I said, pulling away from him with my arms still around his neck and his hands holding my waist. He chuckled and smiled from ear to ear as if he were the cheshire cat.

After a few seconds I could tell he drifted away daydreaming, staring at me with eyes full of love they were drowning in it as if he was wearing heart-shaped sunglasses. He looked really pretty like that.

While the band was signing autographs and meeting the fans I just hung out with Bonnie and Carmen and we talked about a whole bunch of weird shit. I don't know how talking about the concert switches up to our opinions on pineapple on pizza, they don't mix and everyone should know that.

A/N: This felt longer in my head

What are yall's favourite songs btw

Also should I put random pictures of Bill here?