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Results day

It's been a couple months, preseason starts next week and now I need my results. I decided to go to college and study biology as well as do football. But that means I need good grades, which is something that I didn't know if I could. I get in the car my hands shaking and the nervousness swirling around in my stomach. My mam gets in the car and we drive to my school.

When we get there, my mam stays in the car. I put my phone in the back pocket of my jeans and make my way into the hall. I see my name in the white envelop,d my hands trembling and my lips shivering from nervousness, I hadn't come with anyone I wanted to do this myself.

I opened it and read:

Science: 3,6
English literature: 8
English language: 7
Maths: 7
Re: 5
Pe exam: 9
History: 6
Computing: 5
Spanish: 7

I look at it and feel like crying. I couldn't believe it I hadn't  done it. I look around and see a couple people looking at there's, then I see Hallie walk in. I go over to her and hug her. She gets hers and opens it. "I failed maths" she says "but passed everything else" she adds
I hug her and say "it's okay"
"I'm gonna go to Southwark college" she says
I smile at her but also felt like crying, for the first time our group was going to be split. I give her another hug and then I see Olly walking in. "I'm gonna go" I say.

I go to the car, I see Leah and Amanda walking down "did you pass" Leah asks me. I keep my head down and keep walking. I get in the car and I don't speak to my mam. She drives home and I sit in the living room. I look at the results. "This can't be true" I say to myself.
My mam comes in and says "Leah's here"
"Tell her to go then" i say.
"It's too late" Leah says whilst walking in. My mam walks out.

She sits next to me and I put the piece of paper on the side. I'm a failure, I think.

"So did you pass?" Leah asks
"Did you" I ask her
"Yeah" she says
I look at my hands and say "well I've disappointed everyone"
"What did you fail" she asks and pulls me into a hug from the side. "Science, I can't even do the course I want to" I say
She hugs me even tighter, no matter what she says or what she does will stop this hurting.

I start to cry and I'm practically laid on top of her. Thomas  comes in and I jump up. He hugs me and he says "I want you to take me to football not mummy"
"Why" I ask wiping my tears away and leaning down to his height.
"Because she doesn't watch me you do" he says jumping up and down.
"Sorry Tommy, not today" I say
"Please" he says
"Tommy, mum has to take you" I say
He leaves and I look back at Leah. She stands up and hugs me. I kiss her shoulder and then say "thanks le"

She pulls away from the hug and holds my hand "no matter how bad you fail or how good you succeed I'm always here you know" she says
I look into her eyes and I say "I love you"
That was the first time I had ever said that, to anyone. "I love you too" she replies. I kiss her and then hug her again.

My mam comes in and says "I know you don't want me to see your results but I need to hun, for college they have to see it"
I get the paper and I hold it out. "You passed in everything except science you still have a chance. Plus you passed one science" my mam says
"I know but I did combined" I say
Leah holds my hand "you know, not everyone has a good start to college. We all have to leave each other at some point" Leah says
"Where you going" I ask
"Same one as Hallie" she says

My heart drops, that was so far away. "What?" I ask choking back the tears.
"It's the only place I could do football and accounting together" she says
"No" I say my voice cracking
My head drops and a tear falls down my cheek, I rub it and say "I'm gonna take Tommy to training, see you later"

"Tom" I shout
"Coming" he says