As I leave school and sign for my childhood club with my best friend Leah Williamson. We wander the streets of London as footballers and have special sleepovers. With Hallie and Olly joining us as they go off to college and we don't see them often...
We train for the morning, in the afternoon we got the freedom of going round Germany. I go up to mine and Leah's room and get in the shower, when I get out I change into this:
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It was quite warm, so a lot of the girls were wearing shorts. Leah was also wearing shorts. I go into the room and say "I'm going to go, so see you later"
"Hey, why don't you come with the team. We are going out for food" Leah says
"Okay" I say
We go downstairs and meet with the team. Freya was there but I just blocked her out and stayed with Leah. We find a restaurant and order some food.
"How's you and hazel?" Alexia asks me. She clearly didn't know. "Erm, we broke up" I say "Oh sorry, I didn't mean to-" she goes to say "No it's fine don't worry" I say "You sure, I'm really sorry" she says. A lot of the girls were listening. "Yeah I'm fine, it's fine. Honestly, I don't even like her anymore. Not after everything she's done" I say
"What's she done" Freya asks I ignore her. Alexia says "it's rude to ignore people" "You all obviously want to know the truth. So here, I kissed Leah yesterday. I phoned Hazel and she shouted at me. I cheated on her. Then later on Keira, Georgia Beth and Freya come to my room and drag me into the lounge area. Freya showed me a message, where I found out she and Hazel had kissed during mine and hazels relationship, also Freya kissed Leah. So there's the truth, I'm not speaking to either of them." I say
The girls gasp in shock and I see Freya's face turn. "Look I didn't want to tell everyone about this, but you guys don't even know how to respect people's privacy" I say "I'm sorry" alexia says "Enough of that" I say "I didn't want to tell people, because not only did I want to out myself about it, I didn't want to out Leah either. But Freya is sat right there and look at her. She's devastated I don't know why, she's the one who caused this. And ruined our friendship, which will never be fixable" I say
"But, let me just speak" Freya says
I stay quiet. "Me and Leah were never meant to happen. It was a one time thing, but Hazel she kissed me. I think I'm in love with her" she says I look at her choking back the tears. "When we're you going to tell me?" I ask "I couldn't, I couldn't do that to you. Neither could Hazel, because she's still in love with you" Freya says "But, I told hazel so quickly. How did you carry that guilt with you" I ask "I haven't been able to, I've lied to myself for almost a year. I don't know how, I don't know why. I just want my best friend back" she says "I don't, I've already got mine" I say and look at Leah. "Leah hurt you as well, you just forgive her. How come not me?" Freya asks "Leah had no choice in leaving, that was up to her parents. You had a choice" I say "Look, maybe you should carry this on later" Leah says
"Yeah" I say and stand up. I walk out the restaurant and go to my mams hotel. She tells me her room so I go up to it. "Hey" I say "Hey you good?" She asks me "Yeah" I say "How's Grandad" I ask "He's alright for now, the doctors said he might have a little bit more time. So they don't know exactly. But I'm flying back after your game tomorrow" my mam says I hug my mam.
