Save Me

Chapter 17

Xander pov :

We got back into the car after what we had said to Ashton and yes , i bought a new pair of pants so the lie won't be known we head back to one of our friends house the one we have a project together we finished it and now Gabe dropped me at my home . As i enter the house i see Asher was moving around and talking on the phone and he looked stressed .

Xander : Hey , Asher are you okay ? why you look so stressed ?

Asher : OH THANK GOD , where have you been i have been calling you the past six hours and you didn't pick up , are you okay ? nothing happened to you ? 

Xander : i am all good Asher , didn't Ashton call you ? 

Asher : No , he didn't call me at all , Did he know where were you ? 

Xander : Ahh , about that " nervous laugh " ehhh something happened today with me ? 

Asher : What happened and why your trouser are different ? 

Xander : ihadanexplosivediarrhea.

Asher : slowly Xan , i didn't understand a thing .

Xander : i had an explosive Diarrhea .

There was silence Asher is standing there looking at me mouth open and wide eyes 

Xander : Are you okay Ahe-

Before i even complete my sentence Asher Burst out laughing 

Asher : " laughing " I can't believe myself " laughing " you have explosive Diarrhea just like me " laughing " 

As Asher was laughing Ashton came in looking at me then at a laughing Asher 

Ashton : What is going on her-

Asher : Ashton , Xan have explosive Diarrhea " laughing " 

Ashton : at least he didn't freak out like you , when you had it you screamed like you were being chased by a serious killer .

i couldn't hold my laughter i burst into laughter and i fell from laughing so hard .

Asher : Hey , you said you won't tell anyone it was once okay . 

Ashton : You were laughing like you didn't have it at all and plus don't bully your brother Asher , " chuckling " 

We sat down and had dinner together and they told me stories of them when they where in California and we laughed a lot like the old times 

After dinner i went to my room , it was quite , dark and cold , i wish what i told today was true i wish it was all real not a lie to cover my depression , it came all crashing i cried silently in my room i can't take it , i went to my bathroom searching for my blade i really need a relief

T.W : SELF - HARM 

I dragged the blade across my arm , blood started to come i started to feel relief , crying on how much i am a liar and don't deserve them i cried all my tears , i don't deserve them , they are better without me .

I stopped cause i don't want them to know i cleaned my wounds and bandaged them and i wore a hoodie since it is getting cold they won't suspect a thing , i got in bed with one thought in my mind , " I don't deserve to live "    

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sorry for taking too long in updating , i hope you like the chapter tell me your opinions in the comments 

What will happen when Asher and Ashton find out what their parents did to their little brother .