Save Me

Chapter 19

Ashton pov :

The police arrived at our home , they sent a search party to look for my brother , Gosh why would he do something like that , it's 1 am and still no news on my brother , the police are leaving now and told us to report a missing case , it's breaking me i failed as a brother to look after him , and Asher is quiet , it's his way in coping with stress , as i was signing a few papers for the cops , Xander was standing there 

Xander : What the hell is going on here ?

Xander pov :

I woke up and i realized it was night time , i checked my watch and it was 12:30 am , god i slept too much i got up and started to head home , it was so quiet and there was a cold breeze , what a perfect time for a perfect walk , as i got near my home there i saw in the distance cops cars , what the hell happened , i said to myself as i got near i saw Ashton and Asher were there and fear and guilt all written on their faces , " what the hell is going on " Ashton looked relieved and angry at the same time and Asher was looking kinda at ease but fear was still there on his face , i approached them 

Xander : What is going on here , why there is cops infront of our home Ashton ?

Ashton : You weren't at home when we came back . Go inside now Xander .

Ashton looked pissed and that is the first time i see him like this , i went inside the home and waited for them in the living room , they came in , an angry Ashton and a quiet Asher behind him 

Ashton : Would you like to tell us where the hell have you been all day ?

Xander : I was outside the home .

Ashton : Why didn't you take your phone with you and why you didn't inform any of us that you were going outside or left a note and why you didn't tell us that you had a holiday today huh ?

I started to get pissed who the hell is he to ask me all these questions and why does he even care he left me all alone with these monsters and yet he is standing here blaming me , i looked at him not answering at all 

Ashton : I don't have the whole day for you Xander , are you going to tell us or what ?

Xander : Why i am obligated to answer you , i came home safe and in one piece so no need to ask all these questions .

Ashton : Don't test my patience Xander , you better answer me now .

Xander : I am not obligated to answer you  and what is the problem that i go outside with no phone huh , where is the problem for god sake , i am teenager and i need my personal space i don't have to tell you each and everything i do .

Ashton : YOU ARE OBLIGATED TO ANSWER ME XANDER AS LONG YOU ARE LIVING UNDER THIS ROOF YOU ARE OBLIGATED TO LISTEN TO OUR RULES AND OBEY THEM , AND NEVER ARGUE ABOUT IT , WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU ARE DOING HUH , WE ARE OUT WORKING AND YOU HERE DISAPPEARED FOR NEARLY A WHOLE DAY GOD KNOW'S WHAT YOU DID AND HERE YOU ARE ARGUING LIKE A FUCKING SPOILED BRAT .

Xander : I AM NOT OBLIGATED TO ANSWER YOU , YOU ARE JUST MY BROTHER WHO IS JUST USING HIS POWER OF BEING IN CHARGE OF THE HOME UNTIL OUR PARENTS COME AND YOU WILL GO BACK WHAT WILL YOU DO TO ME HUH , TELL ME ?

Ashton : DON'T YOU DARE TO RAISE YOUR VOICE ON ME YOU SPOILED BRAT , AND YOU REALLY WANT TO KNOW WHAT I CAN DO , I CAN DO TEN TIME WORSE THAN MY PARENTS DID .

Xander : SHUT THE FUCK UP ASHTON .

As i said that a slap had fallen on my face , i was shocked i looked at him in the eyes and i saw no regret in it.

Asher : WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU ASHTON 

Ashton : YOU DESERVE EVERYTHING OUR PARENTS DID TO YOU , YOU ARE A FUCKING DISGRACE TO THIS FAMILY XANDER , YOU ARE NOTHING YOU ARE JUST A PATHETIC HUMAN BEING XANDER , WHO DOESN'T DO ANYTHING RIGHT , ALL YOU DO IS TROUBLE EVERYWHERE .

To say the least i am shocked and surprised , it was quiet after what he said , he looked shocked and Asher looked pissed of 

Ashton : I didn't mean it that way Xander i am sorr-

Xander : It doesn't matter Ashton , why would you apologize for saying the truth 

Ashton : No wait please Xander , let me expla-

Xander : No need Ashton , the damage has been done already you can't take what you said whatever punishment you will say i am okay with it , i deserve it anyway .

I left them after what i said i didn't give them a chance to say whatever lie they would tell , i went into my room and checked if they called all day and to my surprise they didn't at all and they are screaming at me like i didn't answer their calls , i went to the bathroom and getting under the water with his words playing in my head like a broken record , but today the voices are asleep , i didn't cut at all , i dried myself and got dressed , and grabbed my poem notebook from my secret drawer and i started to write what i feel it's another way to get out what is bothering me when the voices are asleep 

I was believing that there is people who love me 

They would save me when i need them 

I argued with my demons and i didn't believe them

They warned me no one love me 

But i didn't believe them 

I wish i believed them , at that time 

They were trying to protect me from the harsh reality

But i was so naive i trusted them 

I believed that they love me 

But i was wrong , they hate me , they don't want me 

The only people who wants me are my demons 

And one day , i may come to them 

i finished the poem , i felt at ease once i wrote it , it's like a burden is removed from my chest i put the book in it's place again and went to sleep and , for the first time i see the night as a relaxation not as an escape and i drifted into a deep sleep 

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A new chapter , things are going to take turns and unexpected turns so stick around 

And what is your opinion on Ashton now and do you think Xander will forgive him or no and will Gabriel know what happens , stay tuned 

And the poems are from my own creation so no copying