Mansion - NF
Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in
Slept inBroken legs, but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansionYo, my mind is a house
Covered in lyrics
They're all over the place
There's songs in the mirrors
Written all over the floors
All over the chairs
And you get the uncut version of life when I go downstairsThat's where I write when I'm in a bad place and need to release
And let out the version of NF you don't wanna see
I put holes in the walls with both of my fists till they bleed
You light get a glimpse of how k cope with all this anger in mePhysically abused
Now that's the room that I don't wanna be in
This pictures not blurry at all
I just don't wanna see it
And these walls ain't blank
I just don't wanna see em
But why not? I'm in here so I might as well read emI gotta thank you for this anger that I carry around
Wish I could take a match and burn this whole room to the ground
Matter of fact
I think imma burn this room right now
Somehow, this memory, for some reason, just won't burn downYou used to put me in the corner to see the fear in my eyes
Then took me downstairs and beat me till I screamed and I cried
Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind
But imma keep the door shut and lock the lyrics insideInsidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like k missed my alarm and slept in
And slept in
Broken legs, but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansionYo, my mind is a house with walls, covered in pain
See, my problem is, I don't fix things, I just try to repaint
Cover 'em up, like it never happened, say, "I wish I could change"
Are you confused? Come upstairs and I'll show you what I meanThis room's full of regrets, it just keeps getting fuller, it seems
The moment I walk into, it's the same moment that I wanna leave
I get sick to my stomach every time I look at these things
But it's hard to look past when this is the room where I sleepI look around, one of the worst things I wrote on these walls
Was the moment I realized that I was losing my mom
One of the first things I wrote was, "I wish I woulda called"
But I should just stop now, we ain't got enough room in this songAnd I regret the fact that I struggled trying to find who I am
And I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can
Shrug it off like it ain't nothing, like it's out of my hands
Then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plansAnd I regret watchin' these trust issues eat me alive
And at the rate I'm goin', they'll probably still be there when I die
Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind
The question is, will I ever clean the walls off in time?Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in
And slept inBroken legs, but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion Inside this mansionSo this part of my house, no one's been in it for years
I built a safe room and I don't let no one in there
'Cause if I do, there's a chance that they might disappear
And not come back, and I admit, I am emotionally scaredTo let anyone inside, so I just leave my doors locked
You might get other doors to open up, but this door's not
'Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me
And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert meI'm barricaded inside, so stop watchin'
I'm not coming to the door, so stop knockin', stop knockin'
I'm trapped here, God keeps saying I'm not locked in
I chose this, I am lost in my own conscienceI know that shuttin' the world out ain't solvin' the problem
But I didn't build this house because I thought it would solve 'em
I built it because I thought that it was safer in there
But it's not, I'm not the only thing that's livin' in hereFear came to my house years ago, I let him in
Maybe that's the problem, 'cause I've been dealing with this ever since
I thought that he would leave, but it's obvious, he never did
He must have picked a room and got comfortable and settled inNow I'm in a position, it's either sit here and let 'em win
Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can
'Cause in order to do that, I'd have to open the doors
Is that me or the fear talking? I don't know anymoreIt's lonely
Inside (inside), inside (inside)
It's lonely (it's lonely)
Oh, yeah, it's lonely
Inside this mansion928 words
A/N:
BOLD = I relate
No bold = Don't relate
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