Straykids Oneshots

Hyunlix: These Feelings

This oneshot will be fluff and the second part will have smut.

Hyunjin Pov:

I've been friends with the most amazing guy named Felix for years now, but now I think I'm starting to see him differently. I don't know in which way but I feel closer to him. I feel like I always want to be around him and I'm the happiest when I am. He's also been more affectionate lately and more clingy. I'm not complaining though because his cuddles are amazing. But it feels like somethings changed and I'm not sure if it's a good or a bad thing yet.

I've known Felix forever basically and we've been together through the highs and lows. I'd literally die for this little sunshine. I'd fight for him and I have. When he came out as gay many people started picking on him because of it. I fought the people who were actually trying to physically hurt him. Granted I did get in trouble but it was all worth it when it was for Felix. I'd do anything for him and he'd do the same in return. 

Even though we've been close for awhile I feel closer right now. I feel something different for him and it's so strong and overpowering that I can't even describe it. It just feels like I want to complement him with everything, keep him safe from all of his troubles, be next to him, and make sure he never get's hurt. 

I think I might be falling in love. But how is that possible, I'm not gay. Right? But how I'm feeling right now is denying any possibility that I don't like him. I think I really do love him. It's the only explanation for how much closer I've been to him. But it doesn't feel onesided because Felix had been closer too. I feel like I need to tell him. If he doesn't like me let's just hope we can stay friends.

I'm going over to his house tonight for a sleepover. We have had one almost every friday for almost two years now. It was one of the things that we were the most close during after I started feeling that love for him.

Anyways, I gonna go walk to his house because he lives just a neighborhood over.

I go to his house and just walk straight up to his room. And oh my god can I just say I love his room so much. It matches his personality so well and is always well organized. It's way better than my room because I got random unfinished art pieces and tubes of paint all lying around.

"Hellos, can you grab the snacks, they're uh.. well you know where they are. But don't eat my favorites." Felix says as I go to get the snacks from his nightstand where they always are.

"I was already going to get them as soon as I got up here." I jump onto the bed with the snacks and he jumps on to.

We start to watch a movie and just talk like we always do. I can't tell him just yet I just have to find the right time to do so. 

We get through half of the movie before I start to get hungry for actual well kinda real food.

"Hey Lix, can you make some ramen for us." I ask.

"Can't you make it this time. I made it last time." He answers back.

"Please." I say and pout my lips out.

"Okay fine just because you look so cute like that." I laugh and giggle at what he says.

"The normal kind right?"  I nod and he kisses me on the forehead. That's never happened before. We may be close but he's never kisses me anywhere before. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't happy about it though. 

He comes back with the ramen and we get back to watching the movie. I have my arm around him and his little legs rested on top of mine. I loved how small he was compared to me.

It was so relaxing and I almost started to fall asleep before Felix woke me up with a kiss on the cheek. I think he really does like me back because he's never done this before.

The movie was over and we were cuddled up closer than ever.

"I have something to tell you Felix." I say looking over at him and grabbing his hand holding it gently.

"Let me guess. You have a crush on me." He looks at me smiling.

"Yes. Umm how did you know." I say with a faint blush on my cheeks.

"I kinda noticed a little bit of a difference with how you are with me. You've been closer and it really didn't help me try to get over my crush on you." He looks up at me with his own blush.

"Wait you like me." I look at him with a smile starting to form on my face.

"Yeah I wanted to get over my feeling for you because I wasn't sure if you liked me and I didn't want to lose what we already have. I've liked you for 2 years so basically when we started this sleepover thing. But now that I know you like me too I don't have to get rid of those feelings. So Hyunjin I love you." He says happier than ever.

"I love you too." I say kinda glad Felix got the awkward admitting your feelings thing over with so quickly. 

"So what do you say, do you want to be my boyfriend now?" He lets out a happy giggle.

"Yes. I'd love that." I let out a little laugh.

"Can I kiss you right now." Felix asks. 

"Yes of course. I mean I love you and I want to do all of those things with you." I say not completely understanded what I meant in that moment. 

We lean into a kiss and when out lips pressed together all of those feelings came rushing into me and I could completely understand them now. I love him so much.

"What other things would you want to do with me?" Felix asks innocently.

"Ummm I don't really know. Like kissing and stuff." I say not understanding why he sounded and looked so innocent in this moment.

"Well this is a sleepover so would you maybe want to sleep with me." Felix asks smirking.

"We normally do that though. Like we always sleep in the same bed." I'm a little confused right now.

"Now silly I mean like having sex." He says with a straight face. I don't know how he said it with a straight face. It must be Felix magic or something.

"I mean yeah. I would like that. Do you really want too?" 

"I've wanted this for so long but I won't do it if you aren't comfortable yet." He says making sure he wasn't forcing me to do anything.

"I want this too. I really want you right now." Now that I understand those feelings. I really want all of him.

He kisses me again and lips move together eagerly wanted more. He opens his mouth a little and I slip my tongue in. I hold onto his body and we hold each other closer. He kisses my cheek before starting to kiss my neck. 

This feels so right. Now I know my feelings were right. I'm in love with him and that's for certain now.

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