𝐈'𝐦 𝐒𝐚𝐟𝐞 𝐖𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐘𝐨𝐮 [ ℝ𝕦𝕤ℂ𝕒𝕟 ]

𝕊𝕙𝕠𝕡𝕡𝕚𝕟𝕘

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Finally , we can do something good today , I was starting to get impatient , Russia already piss me off I don't want more and he knows that .

"With what are we gonna start , now , clothes or food ? " China asks .

"I suggest clothes , some food may be need to refrigerate . " Russia answers .

"He's right . " Germany replies .

After that I didn't follow what they were saying , I wasn't interested in the topic , it wasn't important anyways .

"Bro , you are just burning my eyes , right now . " Russia says .

"Stop judging me , how am I supposed to know i need to conjugate that sh**ty ass in what called ' imparfait' and ' passé simple ' . " Japan says back .

"Not my fault if you're stupid , you stupid bitch . " Russia replies as Japan rolls his eyes , annoyed by this guy .

"Calm down , kids . " China interrupts them , after that I didn't really hear what they were talking about after that .

"What about a white shirt ? " Canada says .

"Huh ? Sorry , I wasn't listening . " I apologize .

"It's okay , I'm sorry about Russia . "

"It's fine I got use to , it's not the first time . "

"Oh , well I hope it's not getting worse . "

"Nah , I don't think so . "

"Guys , what do you guys think ? The blue on or the purple one . " Germany shows us a blue and purple dresses , he's trans but we still call him with his original pronouns .

"Mhm . . I would think maybe the blue one , everyone loves blue . " Canada suggests .

"You may be , right . What about you Mexico ? " Germany turns to me .

"I don't know , purple maybe ? " I randomly says .

"What about you buy them both , I'll pay . " Russia replies .

"Really ? " Germany asks , surprised by the offer .

"Yeah , I suggest you to wear the blue one more often , Canada is right , blue is good on you . " Russia answers .

Woah , it was the first time in a while Russia is generous like this . I mean , he loves buying us things and all but not every often he tries to equal everyone opinion , yeah , I'm bad at explaining . ( More the writer , though )

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I walked around bored , I tried to found something to wear but nothing is interesting there . I was there just for helping my friends around , I could feel some people were looking at me and I looked at them back and glared at as I scared them , making them looked away from me . I know , I'm a monster and no one can change it , not even my siblings except one person , my dad . He was always there for me even when it's for a little thing to care about , like time I injured myself by falling on the ground , he'll run to me and comfort me , he's the only one who would understand me whenever I'm sad .

"Hey Russia , look . " China interrupts my thoughts .

"Mhm ? " I reply , not very interest .

He showed me a long blue t-shirt with short sleeves and a white writing saying ' Fuck you ' .

" What do you think about that one ? " China asks .

"It looks nice . " I honestly say , not because there's the ' Fuck you ' word on the shirt . ( He swears . )

"Wanna try it? " He asks and hand it to me .

"Sure thing . " I gladly take it and went to a changing room .

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After changing , looked at myself in the mirror and noticed something , I lost a lot of weight and I didn't even notice . I was very skinny , my bones are almost showing , I never thought I could easily lost that much weight in two months . Is it because I didn't eat a lot ? Oh well , I didn't expect loose that much weight . I sighed , I walked out of the changing room to show it to China .

"Damn , you really lost a lot of weight ! " China comments as I sigh of tiredness .

"I know , I didn't even noticed . " I mumble .

"Now I understand why your father was very worried about you . " China says .

"What do you mean ? " I ask .

"Since last month you lost a little bit of weight , your father noticed just by how your legs were skinny . " He explains .

"Oh , I didn't expect it was that noticeable . " I honestly reply .

We can't say if I'm fat or not since I always wear pants , shirts and sweaters . I'm a cold person , but only in summer . You see I'm that guy who's wearing a t-shirt even if it's -45°c outside . ( I am also one of them and I love seeing people suffer in the snow . )

"What about after we went to the store , we buy something to eat ? " China suggests .

"Sure , why not ? " I reply .

I took the t-shirt off , I was about to to put it originally where China found it until Japan comes interrupt me .

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I'm so fucking tired all the time .
I just had a mental breakdown for almost a month , I can't even draw or do anything than sleeping , reading boring books or watching random videos .