Do you ever feel like nothing. Like nothing matters. You don't care what you do anymore. Like you want to cry but can't because of that feeling of nothingness. Feeling like you want to die but can't even pull yourself up. The feeling of having no sense of hope or faith. I've lost my hope. I've lost the feeling of being happy instead of faking. Even when I try I get broken down with in seconds. I just want to laugh and keep laughing till I can't breathe. I want to be happy without the pain near me or touching me. I want it away from me. Its all over me like bugs stinging me leaving marks and pain all over me. I want my life to be like it used to be. I want myself not to be corrupted by the thoughts I battle every day, every hour and every second. I want the life of myself back. I try and try to get them back but I can never reach in time before its gone all over again. I reach but I'm pulled back by the thoughts of death, pain, brokenness, and betrayal. I want my life to be full again like it was years ago.
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RandomThis is just me venting because I need too. You may say anything you want to me as long as it positive.
