𝐇𝐄 𝐖𝐀𝐒 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐎𝐍𝐋𝐘 𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐌𝐄,
"it's very beautiful over there." i don't know where there is, but i think it's somewhere, and i hope it's beautiful.
because all my life it was me and my brother. me and cliff. until the cold septemb...
i've known him for so little yet so long. yet i hate him. but i love him.
i hate him for coming in and healing me. i wanted to love him. but damn it not love him like this. they all pushed him away, yet pulled him to them when they almost snapped.
and i hate how i want everything from him. i wanted his lips on the microphone, his zeros, i wanted his secrets, his parts that would never heal, his favorite addictions,
i wanted his nightmares, the ghost in his doorway, his paralyzed sleep, i wanted him i wanted to be his lover, but wanted to be his jailer.
i w̶a̶n̶t̶ need him.
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coraline lee burton
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"i'm 5 years younger than him. i was 19 when he died."
but now i'm 20. and he's still 24.
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jason curtis newsted
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"look at me burton." he demanded. hot hands wrapped around her cold wrists.
coraline only let her eyes drop with more tears. tears over her brother. her childhood. the man standing in front of her at this moment.
"l hate you!" she finally gasped out. eyes still locked on the off white wall.
"if you hated me, you wouldn't be so nervous in my presence."
and that was all it took for coraline lee burton to glance at him. and to beg her body to not betray her and lock their lips together.
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mixtape
track 1: grouper, "poison tree" || track 2: sufjan stevens, "fourth of july" || track 3: flower face, "spiracle" || track 4: alex g, "16 mirrors" || track 5: taylor swift, "my tears ricochet" || track 6: $uicideboy$, "champagne face" || track 7: lana del rey, "brooklyn baby" || track 8: nirvana, "heart-shaped box" || track 9: pearl jam, "jeremy" || track 10: fleetwood mac, "gold dust woman" || track 11: the smashing pumpkins, "bullet with butterfly wings" || track 12: $uicideboy$, "not even ghosts are this empty" || track 13: kanye west, "flashing lights" || track 14: the smashing pumpkins, "today" || track 15: metallica, "fade to black" || track 16: foo fighters, "everlong" || track 17: deftones, "bored" || track 18: guns n' roses, "november rain || track 19: lana del rey, "candy necklace" || track 20: bon iver, "rosyln"
