Unsatisfied.

Part Nine.

Me and Amia came back inside from the balcony and I went inside the kitchen and pulled out a bottle of Moet that I had in the refrigerator and I grabbed two glasses. "You want some" I asked her as she sat on the couch. She nodded and I poured both of our glasses and I took hers over to her and sat down next to her. It was quiet but it was tension. I ain't know what the fuck to say I was hoping she said somethin. "Ever want any more kids" she asked. "I want another son. But a few years ahead. I got too much shit goin on right now it wouldn't be smart" I said and she nodded. "What about you though. You want kids" I asked as I sat up to drink from my glass and then I leaned back as I held it in my hand. "I definitely want kids. Like 3" she said. "I can see you bein somebody mom that's crazy" I said and she laughed. We finished our first glass and then we had some more and we both was fucked up once the bottle was gone. She dozed off on the couch and I rolled up and stepped back out onto the balcony. I sparked the blunt up and I stared down from the balcony and seen all the traffic. I pulled my phone out my pocket and checked the time it said 1AM and I knew I had to get some sleep soon because we had to be up in a few hours. I was smokin when I heard the door slide open and I looked and seen her wrapped in a blanket and then she walled over to me. "Thought that little nap was gonna do something my head is spinning" she said with a laugh and I laughed. "I was just thinkin shit we gotta be up in  a few hours" I said back to her. She stayed quiet as she stared out and I stared at the side of her face. "I love it but I hate that you so tough" I said. "Remember when I told you I see you. I do. I been seein right through you since we was kids" I said and she looked at me. "Look." I said feelin nervous about what I was about to say but I never felt like this about nobody. I usually just fuck em and keep it pushin. But Ashlon.. I don't know. It's like after seein her after all this time and she grew up and she a woman now she not even the same person she was. I remember her as runnin wild but she calmed down while she was in there. Plus before she went in we had a thing goin on right before we just never got to it. But that was 6 years ago.. "I definitely ain't the nigga you described earlier. I live a fast life and probably won't never leave this shit alone. But, I can be whatever you need me to be. You want me to walk around this bitch with a suit and tie on carrying a bible I'll do that" I said and she laughed. "You want me to lead I can do that, I can do whatever and be whoever you need me to be" I said as I turned towards her. "Why would you change yourself for me" she asked. "Why wouldn't I" I said. "I then had all the bitches, I then been here and there, I done did it all. But you comin home got me thinking. I know it's been 6 years but I ain't never stopped feeling the same cause we never got the chance to explore what could've been" I said. "I ain't never stopped wantin you Is what I'm tryna say. And I'll do whatever for you, reason why I'm gone make sure when this shit all said and done, that nigga Marcus gone be right in a body bag. You ain't gone ever have to worry about em again, even if we don't take this shit somewhere, ima still do that for you because I owe that to you" I said. She leaned in and kissed my lips and I wrapped my arms around her waist and deepened the kiss. I picked her up and carried her inside not even closing the door behind us. That was the least of my worries. I carried her to the couch and I sat down and she climbed on top of me. "I don't think I'm ready for this" she said and I nodded. "That's coo." I said as I rubbed her back and stared at her. "Or a relationship" she added and I nodded. "That's coo too" I said. "I am interested in you" she said as we held eye contact. "I'm just scared. And I have to get my shit together I'm just so money focused right now I don't really have time for anything else. But I don't want you to think I'm rejecting you because I'm not and I don't want you to wait on me because..." she started to say when I cut her off. "Ima wait" I said with a smirk. "I been waitin" I said with a shrug. "I'm sorry I hope I didn't offend you" she said and I furrowed my eyebrows. "Nah not at all. I understand I promise. Ima be right here waitin. In the mean time, you do that. Just focus on you and gettin ya shit together and I told you if you need help getting to where you wanna be I got you. You know I do" I said and she nodded and then she smiled at me. She leaned down and kissed me and I held onto her then she broke the kiss and put her face in my neck and I rubbed her back. "I love you Coop" she said. "I love you too" I said back to her. "Not tryna ruin the moment but my dick hard" I said and she laughed. "Yeah I can feel it" she said. She ain't felt shit yet, but I guess I can hold on for a little while longer. She was worth it unlike these other bitches. As much as I do wanna stop my shit and just be ready when she ready, I ain't that typa nigga. I got Brandi to hold me off while I wait on her. I could never see myself takin a bitch like Brandi serious but she would have to do for right now