Unsatisfied.

Part one.

It's not too many females out there like me. I been in jail since I was 16 and now I'm 22, that's 6 birthdays I spent in here not being able to hug and kiss on my Grandma, and all my people I left behind. Today I finally get to go home and do that. It's a different feeling..Most people would say I'm stupid for doin what I did and me too as years went by but all that matters is I did my time. I stayed 10 toes down. It was all a part of loyalty and I did what I had to do. I learned a good ass lesson from it though, it built me and molded me into the woman I am today. Which is smarter and wiser. Humble. And Hungry. "Lyons" the guard yelled and I stood up. "It's your lucky day. Your out" he said as he opened the doors. "Alright Amia" my cell mate Paris said and she hugged me and I hugged her back. See Paris my girl, we been to different prisons together in 6 years and for some reason we kept ending up at the same one. That's when I knew it wasn't a coincidence. She earned her spot as my sister. I knew she was meant to be in my circle and she proved her loyalty to me the whole 6 year bid. We stuck together in here. But she got another year left in here then she out, promised her I'm gone look out for her on the outside. I squeezed her and let her go." I'll see you alright remember what I said" I said. "Alright mami and I won't forget it" she said. I smirked and then I walked out. I got everything I needed then I finally was free. I pulled my hair out of the bun it was in and let my hair flow. I looked around for Rico to see if I seen him. A smile came on my face when I seen him and I ran over to him and jumped in his arms. "Yo wassup sis" he said as he squeezed me and held onto me. Rico is my best friend since we was 5 years old. Lived next door to each other until we were 19 and then his mom kicked him out and he moved from Brooklyn to Springfield. He never missed a visit until he got himself locked up for a year but as soon as he got home he made sure he came back to visitation. "Oh my god Rico" I said as I held onto him and felt tears rush down my face. I let him go and started to wipe my face and he laughed. "Look at you crying and shit. wassup ma how you feel" he asked. "It don't feel real Ric" I said. "I feel you" He said as hr nodded. "I'm just glad you out of that mufucka' I been making this long ass drive for 3 years" he said and I laughed and he did too. "You wanna drive or what" he asked. "Now you know I can still drive. You know I still ain't lost it I don't think I can." I said and he laughed. "You know I know. Thats why we here right now" he said and I smacked my lips and then laughed it off. "Fuck you" I said through laughs and he laughed. He threw me the keys and I got in and drove off. The whole ride we just did some catching up it felt good to be back with my bestfriend. "How Bri doin Ric" I asked. "She doin good. She turn 3 tomorrow. So Its good you out. Wanted to surprise you but since you asked I thought I a tell you" he said and I smirked. "I finally get to spoil her" I said with a smile. "Man her ass spoiled already" he said and I laughed. "Damn time flew. 3 already" I said and he laughed. "Fuck 3. That lil smart ass girl 21" he said and I laughed and he did too. His phone rung and he answered it. "Yo yo" he said. I stared ahead at the road as we drove through the city. I missed it. Brooklyn wasn't a good place for nobody but it was me, this is where I'm from and I love it. "Yeah I got her. She right Here" he said and I looked at him and he smirked. "Ight" he said then he hung up."where to" he asked. "Home" I said and he nodded. While I was in there nobody came to see me, only my bestfriend Tavi, rico, and my brother. My mom and dad didn't bother. They never put money on my books, sent me a letter, never answered calls to see if I was alright and living while I was locked up. The old amia would've cried about it but over the years I just started not to give a damn. He gave me directions and I drove until we reached the destination. We pulled up to a house and I looked at him. "Who live here" I asked. "You" he said and I stared at him."Be foreal Ric" I said. I turned the car off and he laughed. "Foreal ma" he said. "What" I said. He got out and I did too and we walked up to the house. "This all you. The key on there" he said. "Ric" I said as I felt my eyes well up and my voice cracked. "Come on Mia" he said with a laugh. I unlocked the door with the key and turned the knob. "Hold up we ain't gone go in yet ight I gotta do this alarm shit" he said and I nodded. "You fuck wit it or what though. Like Ya boy did his thing or what" he said cockily with a smile. "You did yo fuckin thing" I said and he smiled harder and I laughed. "Thank you Ric" I said. "You know I had to get my sis right" he said. Before I went to jail I had my own bag. I didn't have to ask nobody for nothin, anything that was done for me was extra. I was never the kind of bird to eat out of anybody hand. But listen, When I say Rico always stayed down , he literally always did. I gave Marcus, my ex some money before I left and he was supposed to flip it and look out for me but he didn't. I didn't hear from him in 6 long ass years and he was the one I did the time for. It's crazy how a mufucka a do you. But I'm back for all mine. "I love you Ric" I said. "I love you too." he said back as he finished putting in the code. The alarm beeped and he looked at me and nodded for me to go in first. I walked inside and smiled when everybody yelled surprise. The house is everything. Real nice. My eyes watered up when I seen my big brother though because he my baby and I'm his. Our parents was fucked up but I thank them for that because it brought me and him closer. He hugged me and I held onto him. "Don't cry baby girl" he said and I nodded but I couldn't stop. He kissed the top of my head and he started to cry too. He let me go and he looked at me as tears still fell from his face. "You home sis" he said. "I'm home" I said as I wiped my face. He hugged me again and then he let me go. "Is that my baby girl" I heard. I cried harder when I realized it was my grandma. "Nanny" I said through tears and I hugged her and she rubbed my back. "My sweet baby" she said in Spanish and I cried as my head rested on her shoulder. "I love you nanny" I said. "I love you more" she said as she kissed all over my face. I smiled at her and she wiped my face and then she let me go to speak to everybody else. "Amia" somebody yelled and I turned around and seen my best friend tavi. "Tav" I yelled and she ran over to me and hugged me. "Yoo look at you jail bird." She said and I laughed. "How you feel" she asked. "I feel good but I look like shit" I said. "Word. We gone get you together though that's what I'm here for best friend" she said. "Ric she got clothes right" she asked as he walked over to us. He nodded and I shook my head. "Ric you didn't have to" I said. "I did what I was supposed to. You look out for me I always look out for you. We made that promise at 9 years old and we both stuck to it. You home enjoy yo self" he said. I smirked at him and nodded and she grabbed my hand and we went upstairs. tavi being tavi she made sure she did all she could do. She did my hair, and I really needed it done too so I'm thankful. We walked back downstairs and I went and got something to eat. After I got done I walked outside and sat in the chair and stared out into space. I was so happy to be home. I was happy to be free again. Nobody or nothing could ruin my day. The door opened and I looked back and seen Rico. He shut the door and sat next to me. "Wassup" he said. "Nothing. Just thinking. It feels so good to be home. I missed all this love." I said and he nodded. "We all missed you too" he said. I nodded and then sat up and looked at him as I clasped my hands together "On a serious note. Have you heard from or seen Marcus?" I asked. "Na last time I heard his ass
moved out of state somewhere." He said and I nodded and looked down. "I feel so stupid" I said. "You is" he said and I looked at him and sighed. "Foreal and I told you not to get involved with that nigga because of the type of nigga he was. What type of nigga gone have his girl breakin in houses robbin mufuckas with him. He never gave a fuck about you." he said. "Look I know you and Marcus was together. I respect the fact that you held it down like a real woman but you should've never did that time for him. Even though You made a good name for yo self out here in Brooklyn and all over but you still shouldn't have did it. What Marcus did and was out here doing had nothin to do wit you ma. You was only 16. now you 22. You spent 6 years of yo life in that bitch over some shit you ain't do. He ain't come see you, now not even his spirit is at yo welcome home party and you aint even get a answer when you would call him. You know if we ever see that nigga we gone burn him but he not here nomore. He not thinking about you mia. Get that nigga off yo mind b, you home now. Everybody happy, Im happy" he said through laughs. I smirked and he grabbed my hand. "Don't let this fuck you up. All that matters is I got you right when I was in there and trust me it's more where all this came from. I told you ya boy was gonna get you right" he said and I nodded. "So listen we goin out tonight ight. We gone get you fucked up" he said when I cut him off. "I need a man" I said and he laughed. "Maybe you a find you one while we out tonight but what you needa do is have fun." He said. "These niggas you use to know though changed over the years. They wild out here" he said. "Your still the same" I said. "That's cause I'm rico" he said and i laughed. He kissed my cheek and then he hugged Me. He let me go and I smirked at him. "Ima come back in a hour to get you" he said. "A hour" I repeated and he nodded. "Go get ready" he said as he helped me up. "Alright" I said and he walked away. "An hour" he said as he got in his car and pulled out the driveway. After a while everybody said their goodbyes and left. Tavi left to get clothes and came back then she got me dressed and we headed out.