Demoralized

Horrible Day.

[Izuku's POV]

What a horrible day today has been.

It was raining and I didn't even bring my umbrella.

Wait... do I even have a umbrella in the first place? Meh, whatever.

I walked into the rain and saw Bakugo.

I accidentally bumped into him since I was daydreaming.

He started to use his explosion on me and I fell on the floor, my books inside my bag were all over the ground.

He grabbed my collar and dragged me to a deep pond and dumped me inside.

When I was trying to get out, he kept on pushing me underwater again.

I couldn't breathe at all, I felt like my lungs burning in pain.

He finally stopped after saying a word that I couldn't hear.

I coughed and got out of the pond, my clothes were all dumped into water and all wet.

I don't really understand what I did, I just bumped into him and he almost killed me.

Maybe because I'm useless, right I know.

Voices were heard in my head, it hurts so much but some quirkless freak like me deserved it.

If I wasn't alive this all wouldn't had happened and I wouldn't suffer all these pain.

Why am I so stupid...

Plus Eraserhe- I mean Aizawa was a bit off, he didn't text me anymore.

Maybe he's on a mission?... or he forgotten about me.

Probably, or I'm so overly dramatic.

Or maybe... he probably think that I'm useless and worthless, that's why he stopped texting to me.

Sigh maybe I'm overthinking.

[Aizawa's POV]

I had a mission that Nezu sent me to, gosh this demon rat.

And I couldn't text with that kid at all, I hope he's doing alright...

This mission was supposed to be lasted for weeks, but I couldn't help but thinking about that kid.

I feel pretty concerned, what if he has been bullied again?...

What if... he attempted suicide.

I think I am overthinking! Plus the kid wouldn't do that, right?

Calm down shota... I just hope Problem Child doesn't do anything stupid.

I couldn't even have the time to text the kid whether if he's okay or not...

I hope this mission end soon...

[Izuku's POV]

I got back to my apartment, water was dripping from my shirt and pants.

Ugh... why does it always have to be me?...

I hate my horrible life.

Why am I living anyways...

But if I unalive myself... would Aizawa care?

Would anyone care at all?

I went to the bathroom to clean myself and went to take a bath, bandaged my burned bruises from bakugo.

It was midnight already... time goes so fast, huh?

I saw the clock, it was 11 pm.

I saw the knife on my kitchen table, took it and put it near my neck like I was crazy and going to cut my throat open.

Am I attempting suicide?... I feel so dramatic.

But I feel relieved that if I died, everyone would be happy without me, nobody cared anyways. Especially bakugo, he'd be the most happiest person alive knowing that I died.

Tears were streaming down my eyes, gosh... why do I feel like I'm overreacting?

After some moments, I putted the knife down.

Went to the bathroom and looked at myself.

Gosh, I looked so pale and lifeless.

I looked pathetic.

I feel so numb and tired, I decided to go to sleep.

Nightmares again huh.